today, i was a bad girl

but i studied!!!

short stuff (:

so nice of her to write my name

cluttered table at coffeebean

(while waiting for this girl to come)

[CAN ANYONE SPOT THE MACHA KITKAT?!?!?!]

one doesn't know anything in full certainty

there could be a little more anchorage

but other than that, the unsure fire burns deep and rampant

the anchorage could just last a mere second

and then the insecurity becomes viral

and all hope is lost and all is light is frail

we all end up cold homeless hopeless

thoughts barging into my mind like a fucking hydraulics pump

thoughts racing in like a bloody F1 car

i need to fix this

i need to fight this

you can never be too sure of anything

anything can be said and changed in a blink of an eye

always expect the unexpected

because when you're caught off guard

you will topple and fall,mangle and break,hurt and cry

but no one,nothing will pick you up

you don't have to state the obvious

you don't have to pretend to take it in

i know, but i don't care

i'm just gonna do things the way i like

whether you give a shit or not

i have plan A and B

even a C

come beat me

you won't be able to pin me down

i'm just good like that

ohkay i swear,

NO ONE reads this space anymore

cause while i'm here blogging and updating

people are hardcore mugging

-.-

motivational talks and pep talks only have this much effect

the magic wears off sooner than you'll believe

and then you're back to square one

regular dosage is required but not given

cause by then, you're a lost cause

like me

skinny looks so cute

new haircut! (:

raw emotions are enough to twist and turn the facts

no one is at fault yet every party has a part to play

we all need to be the warriors of our battles

be calm at heart before anything else

when the wind settles, everything will fall in place

friend, if you still read this space

get well soon, i'll be here waiting for your recovery

shed no more tears, be strong cause you are

photoframes from dearest lydia

and note plus other unshown gifts from the juniors!

(:

i do not know how to even begin telling you

how much i hate school

this morning, i wake up to this sinking feeling

the horrible feeling of apprehension and disgust

getting prepared wasn't as hard,

it's all just routine

travelling there was worse

because i kept having to fight thoughts of escape

as i got closer

the feeling of dread just washed over me, in strong pounding waves

it was just sucking

cause i have 85 more days of dread to tread

missed the last PE session with my class

it was a great 1 plus year of PE with you guys!

(:

doesn't mean that i am gone and done

doesn't mean that i was hurt and still recovering

that i will stop doing what i like

my edited pictures/photographs are my art

(: