people;

please please please read the text i send you properly

please please please listen to instructions properly

please please please don't ask me stupid questions

mental strength is very important

because if you think you will fail

or if you think you wanna give up

the battle is already half lost

polaroids;

the candid capture of a moment

not like digital camera now

where you can edit/retake till you're happy

cause sometimes,

the best moments are captured;

like that

someone asked me today;

"hazel,what happened to you"

although the person was referring to one thing,

i felt like the question hit the spot

indeed,what happened to me?

till now,i can't answer

i made a realization today

me hating math was not because of one thing

but many

bitch!

to TAN XING TAI

hello,i do have a life OUTSIDE canoeing

and doesn't mean i blog on wednesday means it's about canoeing

q:

don't think too much

time is slipping by

and everyday i lose that little bit of drive

now,i'm down to none

what is wrong with me?

there are so much things on my mind now

that i keep spacing out

and i forgot all about piano

only SIX more days

at this point of time,

i am so screwed!

sick of all the drama;

tired of all the emotions;

FUCK

i don't care if you mind me swearing

don't like it,then leave

cause i don't give an eff what you think

 I EFFING HATE SCHOOL

LIKE REALLY REALLY HATE SCHOOL

ARGH!!!

i just wanna go to the beach now,

and feel the breeze in my hair

for now;

PROMOS is the magic word

the road is long and toiling

but then again;

it's who you're with that determines the road

today didn't turn out like how i expected

they were sporting and it made things so much more easy&fun

THANK YOU ALL

now i just wanna walk in the rain

with the wind blowing

feeling the sand under my toes

at the beautiful beach

i'm sick of being tired all the time

sometimes i walk;

then i realise i don't know where i am or what i'm doing

the fact that i'm LOST

scares me

masked

i just drifted through the day

appearing to be there,but not really

i don't know what's gotten into me

we are DIFFERENT

doesn't mean we have to act a certain way

just so to prove that we are putting in effort

i'm not "emo"

nor am i "tired"

i just simply lost my drive

i lost it

so,do you get it?

don't ask me if i'm ohkay;

if you don't really care

i miss you

THE COUNTDOWN STARTS NOW

counting down to promos

to crazy hectic schedule

i wonder if i can hang on

cause i'm starting to loose my grip

the strongest will survive;

are YOU strong enough?

at times;

when you wished a certain something won't happen

it happens

and you question to nobody why it happens

but if you look in the mirror and ask yourself

if you did anything to lead to such an outcome,

half the time the answer will be YES

i'm so relieved it's all over

what got me through was the people

you're not just my teammates;

cause it feels like so much more

bonds that bound us will never break

for the times we shared together can never be replaced

thank you for saying "hazel, hang in there"

(:

有时，我对你真的是无话可说

有时，我真的不知道应该怎么面对你

总之，我对你已经感到很累很累了

on a lighter note;

they inspired me

though it was a tad scary

they TRULY inspired me (:

way to go peoples!

all i can say to you is;

you really disappointed me

you threw me off with your true colours

tsk.tsk.tsk.

it doesn't feel like it anymore

because,we've just lost our magic

my life;

1) i will study

2) get a degree (in a course i don't like)

3) i will get a desk job (that is boring)

4) i will work nine to five

5) i will marry a man i like but not love

6) i will work nine to five till i retire penniless

7) i will grow old and haggard and have no life

8) i will die poor

WALAU

i'm really starting to question if i'm really cut out for jc

actually,if i'm really cut out to do anything right

staring at my work,

i feel so stupid

damn

i tend to sought company when i'm feeling down

sigh,hazel has got alot of things to sort out

and there's schoolwork to juggle

know a good place that sells time?

will i ever forgive you?

i can't look you in the eye and say "i trust you"

my ankles are being a bitch again

my knees are killing me with the occasional pains

my arms are like jelly

my right shoulder is constantly screaming

i am falling apart

whine baby,whine

it's all about;

choice