watched get smart today

it was hilarious

and i was laughing my heart out

not the funniest

but definitely something to

get my mind off school

so it is a good movie

(:

anyway,

the weather is a defeinite killer in singapore

it's warm and humid

everytime i wish that it'll pour

i'll regret the next second

cause it'll be super humid afterwards

sigh

i need a colder country to leave in

but as scientists estimate

the entire antarctica

will not have any glaciers,ice caps

or whatsoever

in the next ten or so years

humans!

you're supposed to be intelligent beings!

not killers!

today was supposed to watch movie

but in the end

there was no tickets

we went to orchard cineleisure

then plaza singapura

then marina square

in the end

we went to eat

how fun!!!

i'm so random and so bored

):

i would like to dance now

and i really wanna move my feet

i have a sudden surge of energy

to choreograph a dance

and perform it in front of thousands

well,it was always a dream

but now i wanna do it

for real

school's average

life's not very interesting

O levels are rolling in

and i'm still in lala mood

this is so wrong

i alreayd have plans for my holidays

immediately after Os

i'll find myself a job

and i'll sort through my trash

and turn them into

someone else's treasure

and at the same time

try to earn some cash

should i do ebay

or a garage sale

but where is my garage?

i've been in love with gettyimages ever since my elbro introduced it to me

but only recently have i decided to show you my collection (:

~~~

what is it like to look down

at an immense ocean

from a cliff so high

what do you see?

do you see your life flash across the water's surface

do you see your loved ones

do you see your adventurs

do you see your future

or do you just see the water's calm waves

gentle rippling

making pretty pictures

so,

next time you look

what will you see?

i just love swings

although i can't go too high

cause my heart will do a flip inside me

and it makes me sick and dizzy

but i still love it when the wind blows in my face

and my hair just dances in the wind

i love it! (:

what's the hype about a possible guy about?

there's nothing to get excited over kids

cause nothing is up

if there is,you'll be the first in line to know

i'm still single darlings (:

this is not the right time for such things

but when's the right time?

all i need are answers

answers to my million questions

~~~

now,

all i want is to dance again
to feel my body move with the music

to feel the vibe trhough my toes and arms and every part of my bady

i wanna dance so bad

i catch myself dancing sometimes

if only i could dance now...

he's back!

man,

i'm acting like a crazed girl

getting so worked up

hazel,

get your head in the game!

now you know how i feel?

if i could draw more arrows to show how confused i am

i will

and well,

i'm back at square one

or i should say square zero

i don't know what i wanna do

where i wanna go in life

what will my future be?

what will i be doing ten years from now?

i don't know really

i chopped my hair off!!!

it's a little too short for my liking for this style

but oh wells,

what's done can't be undone

next time i chop my hair off

i'll be doing a pixie cut

so it'll be way shorter than it is now

now it's not so hot (:

now's not the time to be thinking of fun and games

and further plans to gather and enjoy great fun

but well,

i can't help it

i would really like to enjoy fun

fun that has no restrictions

in time and space and all that shit

cause we are just people who loves to have fun

aren't we?

so plans are already tentative

now all we need is the actions and a COMMON time (:

also,

plans to purchase stuff will go down way

i'll change my saving startegy

i'll not constrict myself to a fixed saving plan

i'll try to hit ten bucks a week

but i'll still spend when i need to

and i'll save whatever i can

which means my spending power is still flexible

but i still control myself from spending unexcessively

see,

a win-win stitch (:

i don't know what to blog right now

all i can say is that i'm really mixed up

i can't get a hold of my emotions

but what can i say?

when have i EVER known what i felt?

~~~

war and hunger goes on throughout the world

calamities and disasters take place constantly

but when do we really stop and think how we can change all these?

i have to give it to those people who really commit to helping the people

but truth to speak

is this the best way to help?

the best way is to rid off all self-gain

because all this won't have happened if the leaders and other people are interested in themselves solely

but then

evil can only surfice when good exist

so how it that even possible

there are many things that happen

but when we are reminded of these mishaps

well,

we finally realise that

there is more to life than just us

money is so great

it can give me what i need and want

but it seems so evil

it drives people into corners that are dark and scary

it pushes people to morph into creatures

it's evil

but still it is essential

it is impossible to live without it

so well,

balance is key

~~~

"if you need a place where you can run

if you need a shoulder to cry on

if you need a shelter from the rain

if you need a pillar for the pain"

- leona lewis

been messing around youtube looking for vids

found some kid singers that are not bad

for boys,their range is AMAZING

they are :

17 year old declan galbraith

14 year old nat wolff

their songs are not bad (:

some rock band quietdrive is not bad too

got to know it through hamzah

he has awesome taste

leona lewis is my new idol

not only does she have a beautiful voice

her songs are so full of meaning

here i am*

footprints in the sand*

"当你太爱一个东西，终有一天你会不再爱他."

这怎么可能?我不能接受这个事实,虽然事实就摆在眼前.

"when you love something too much,one day you'll find yourself to no longer love it"

how can this be true?i can't bring myself to accept this fact although it has already happened.

although i still myself attached to yppae,i find myself distancing away

i can say i love everyone there

be it the seniors,the juniors

it was always a place i didn't need to lie

or a place i feel obliged to fit in

cause everyone was accepted the way we are

i am confident to say they'll always be in my heart

cause how can one forget their true friends?

whenever i embark on a new project with yppae

be it productions,prep or camps

there are the complaints and rants

but still i'm there day in day out

i'm still there to complete it

but when it's over

i'm all alone and empty inside

and i can't wait for the next one to begin

and then i think

will it be the same ten years down the road

will we still be connected and together

or will we pass by each other on the streets

and not know it's each other?

we'll know when it's time

but as for now,

i'll have to miss the sundays

and concentrate on what's important

i'll miss you guys!

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just came back from camp yesterday

meant to have a productive day today

but i ended up lazing around

and became a couch potato for the day

so...some highlights from camp:

so i was late,and i rushed over by the means of the express bus,

the idea of having a list of filler games was brilliant as we were subjected to sharing the site with unruly BB boys from beatty secondary and a group from ICS [Indian Cultural Society]

also,the weather was alright though it caused a few delays

being the station master for charades with weineng was fun but full of ants,

sentry was alright with company

the camp was an overall success as everyone placed our differences aside to achieve a common goal which is to complete the camp with success

being a stealing school principal was fun

the skit was fun

and being a part of the detective 008 was great fun too!

"我们是零零八!" [we are 008!]

when you detest a certain thing,person or place

what would you be thinking when you get there?

would it be "i'm gonna make this work"

or would it be "i can't wait to get away"

you see,

mindset matters as much as everything else

things happen according to how you view your situation

it could either screw you up or make you fal

but whatever you choose is whatever you will walk down

your own destiny it written by your own hand

your mindset also determine how you view a person and their intentions

one thing can lead to another

so would it be a misunderstanding,a happy-ending or a fight

it all lies in you're bloody mindset

will be leaving for a 3D2N camp tomorrow

stuck at the same place with people i detest

but what can i say

i'll be there with people i enjoy too!

may i allow the happiness to override the awful

to think positive and behave positive will be my personal mission of this camp

go for it hazel!

i know she can do it!

so what's with playing the guilt card?

i'm not going to fall for it

the others might not see

but well,i am not dumb

since i can't thrash it out

i'll have to play by the "right" way

for this matter

my eq is failing me bigtime

but as you said,

an eye for an eye

and i'm not so lowdown to attack because i assumed

"anticipation of a further sacarsm" is crap

keep it for yourself

personally i think we're screwed

or i should say they are screwed

but we're all in this together

whether i want it or not

thus,

it sucks bigtime

i'm really tired

cause who gets enough sleep during the holidays?

well,

i'm really confused with some stuff here

i mean

all the explanantions makes sense

but it'll have to mean only one of it right?

i'm yearning for what i can't get

i'm wishing for the impossible

i'm listening to the unspeakable

i'm watching the unseenable

i'm doing things i shouldn't do

i'm thinking things that can't be true

so what do i do to change all these

change them for me

or change me for them

so sorry

but i can't help it

watched the chronicles of narnia : prince caspian

i find peter cute&hot (william moseley)

then followed by

caspian (ben barnes)

i can't decide if he looks hotter in long or short

but still he's hot

but of course,

william is still better looking than him (:

i for one

doesn't like to be judged

and neither do i like to judge others

but there are always times when it still happens

i see certain "types" of people

and subconsciously i think,

"mina" or "ahlian"

it can't be helped because they just act the way they do

and well,

i won't go around thinking

"athlete" or "boho chick"

when i see one

cause i don't have a bad impression of them

but then again

this is a whole different situation

it's called stereotyping

~~~

stereotyping : a simplified and standardized conception or image invested with special meaning and held in common by members of a group

but then it won't be fair will it?

but think people

it happens all around us

within ourselves and with others

but really

no matter how negative all these actions are

and whether we know it or not

it happens

that's how humans intergrate to who are are today

we are a whole new species of homosapiens

respect

it when you show resistance

even though you wanna punch to bloody fuck outta that person

cause you don't wanna make a scene

and there are others who will suffer

reponsibilty

is finishing the work

even if you don't feel like it

and you know that person won't check

wow.

been long since i last updated

i've been too tired lately to even atay up for my favourite shows

damn

so been spending time at yppae to help for the magical holiday camp

and also,today

i went to meet jinxuan

and we cooked pasta

to prepare her for tomorrow

she's cooking for fauzy (:

it used to be all smiles when your name is mentioned

it used to be full of energy when your name is mentioned

but now,

it doesn't seem like so

i do the opposite when i hear it's you

i frown and keep quiet

cause i don't know how to react

i didn't know i felt like this

only when i experienced it

cause i kept lying to myself that things are still cool

you've become so uptight

it's so unlike you

you've become so distant

i can't even see your shadow

you've become so different

i can't even say hi

cause my momma told me not to talk to strangers

i'm gonna move on

i'm gonna leave

leave off where you left me

cause it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself

it's time to stop feeling weakness

it's enough sorrow and anguish

cause i've had enough

at times,

what you wish

doesn't come true

at times,

you just feel so lousy

at times,

things just don't turn out like they should

at times,

you experience the least expected

at times,

life plays a fool outta you

at times,

life is just a bunch of fun

at times,

i just wish i weren't in this position

at times,

i just want things to return to normal

at times,

i just want to stop all this nonsense

at times,

i just wish the world ain't so complicated

cause i'm suffering and laughing

loving and killing

life is so interesting

the lee cooper sneaker-pumps don't have my size!!!

but it's ohkay...

i bought:

a peach tank top - $5 at cotton on

a turqoise spaghetti top - $5 at cotton on

a blue star-print tank - $13 at fox

a brown top - $11.50 at fox

i'm uber happy! (:

people are turning into selfish

extreme cases are those who see themselves as the centre of the universe

while the rest are selfish in different aspects

but there's denying that they are not selfish at any one point in time

so when it really affects other parties

i feel that it is way outta line

but at times

it helps us

or when we're in a certain mood

so is being selfish a negative thing?

it was great

we should do it again

really fun (:

~~~

i'm tired and beat

sigh.the holidays are full or stuff,

i'm so glad i'm so occupied

but then there are stuff that leaves me feeling uncertain

i never like this kinda feeling

cause i don't feel in control

you know,sometimes signs don't give the correct signals

signs don't usually mean what you think

so i should just push it all away

i really should

in the news today,

or rather yesterday,

china has really stepped up to improve the environment

many major hypermarts are totally cutting off their supply of plastic bags

however,there is still the sale of plastic bags

i think it's for those who come unprepared

some feel that they should totally cut off the plastic bag supply

otherwise it will not bring up the effort

i agree

cause they are selling those recycable bags

so why bother selling plastic bags?

when a major power steps up to improve the situation

kudos china (:

my effort to get a reward from my parents for my improvement

i admit i did compare to my other friends

they live in a really cool world

little improvement and they'll get some reward

for me,no such thing

i don't mine if they reject my idea

but my dad really hurt me,again

he said that the current results don't amount to anything

only the end result counts

like,hello!

i really worked damn hard la

you don't acknowledge,it's fine by me

but don't put me down

and claim that my effort is nothing alright?