sigh.it's getting so funny and pathetic.i need taller friends cause i'm always tired and i need a shoulder.haha.anyway,my gals got guys and it's so funny to go out with them now.sigh.it's so obvious,i'm the odd one out.dang,the fact that i am so extra and out of place like a sore thumb sucks hell can?

anyway,yasser rocks!haha.he is such a great friend.haha.thank you babe!haha.i had fun bullying you today.thanks.

spending money like water.need to save money!haha.

i'm just upset like since forever.i wanna smile like last time.like in the past when i don't worry shit.i need my life back!

blow me away.i'm blue.

"why can't you just hurry up and be good.i'm really getting impatient."now i know how pathetic i am.it's really eating into me.i hate this darn feeling.i blame it on the school for eating up my precious time.or should i blame myself?this sucks,worse than leeches and i feel so down.

blow me away,blue

i really don't mean to bitch on my blog like my childish self used to.but the bloody two-faced bitch is really boiling my blood.what's with being timid?if you're so scared that you'll crap in your pants don't even bother to step on my tail alright?you are such a bitch la.i don't care if you're my friend's friend,i won't let that affect me in making you suffer.so watch out.(susu,sorry.)

i'm now like fucking pissed lor.kiss my ass you filthy whore!

gotta crash

i guess i'm inconsolable.nothing is going my way at all.not one.sigh,i wanna go to sleep and wake up knowing all this crap that life is throwing me is all a nightmare.i'm tired and wanna take a break not?

i wanna give up,i really wanna!but i can't.my mind is driving me nuts.not allowing me to take a break and forget about it.i can't take it no more.

gotta crash!

i'm lovin' inconsolable by backstreet boys.haha.nice nice.. (:

i don't know what i wanna undate on leh..like my life is so boring. q: life is just a sad ball rolling on and on to nothingness.haha.i wanna be unfeeling and want nothing so i won't be so disappointed when i don't get it.sigh.

yeah,i do want him.but i'll be unfeeling for now.not wanting him would be better not?he's unreachable and i'm being haunted by bad experiences that i don't wanna be reminded of.bleah,i need to find my life back. (:

show me the camps and fun,i think i'll find myself again... (:

haha.i've been crashing with my crew the whole week la.haha.been crapping at my home for three times so far.haha.made loads of videos of our spastic selves.got two "educational" videos made by yours truly.haha.exams are in full progression and i know i won't do well.but it'll be better than myes i guess.haha.been mugging and trying my best la.haha.anyway,i wanna go to lalaland.haha.i don't know where it is but i'll find it.haha.life's a bore though.haha.

there's this one person that keeps popping in and out of my mind.i know i'll forget that one person soon.cause life goings on.i'm unfeeling not?

life's a bore,

entertain me

(: