takes forever and effort to build up something

but takes only so little and no effort at all to bring it down

this picture reminded me of the "personality quiz" my friend asked

one question was;

"you walk into the room and you see how many chairs"

i said two, where one was fallen and on its side

the quiz is open-ended

so you have to deduce your own answers

and this question was about how many people i trusted

then he tried to deduce what my answer meant

and his deduction was rather accurate, it's scary

because he asked a second question in which he was to remove a chair

which i'll choose and i chose the fallen chair

it was all too scarily accurate at that time

canoeing makes one physically and mentally strong

but not emotionally

i cried while singing home

yes i know, WTF?!

i cried during the video at the farewell

sigh

i think i too much tears

everytime this one particular song plays,

the pang is existent

it used to be so painful i thought i would be better off dead

but slowly it simmered down

then after that fateful day

[good/bad i'm thankful it happened]

i'm am ready to put you behind

and go ahead with my future my happiness my life

no doubt it's all gonna take time

and i will need it all

but taking the first step

means a lot, not to you, but for me

now when i hear those lyrics,

i just sing along

there is still that pang

but it lessens every time

SO MANY THINGS TO UPDATE!!!

[shall only mention the major happenings, that i can remember]

wednesday;

friend brought me out

to take photographs

to cheer me up

IT WAS AWESOME FUN!

friday;

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS!

had to much fun with 09S02! (:

helium is addictive and fun!

blowing up the balloons was crazy!

SO MANY BALLOONS!!!

CLASS BARBEQUE!

it was a crazy night with three connections to the other group

bittersweet moment for me

but the food wasn't bad at all *AHEM*

played twister with ms tan(!) and a few others

i felt like i could go represent singapore in YOG gymnastics!

it was great!

saturday;

training is awesome!

did c2 with shawn once again

and then c1

great time to think through and just lose myself in the waters

and just be the true me

SENIOR FAREWELL!

wow, the grossness and fun level is like WTF?!

it was great and i really am touched

THANK YOU JUNIORS FOR THE EFFORT AND ALL!

[although i'm quite sure none of them reads this q:]

we met our seniors at central,

so it was like 3 generations together

awesome much?

GREAT DAY,GREAT NIGHT,GREAT EXPERIENCE

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ακόμα κι αν είναι για τίποτα

i don't know how to react to all this

just numb and tired

really really tired

superwoman needs to rest

maybe for the full long long time

that she needs

if erasing was so easy

CANOEING;

used to be an escape

used to be my life

used to be something i'd give EVERYTHING for

CANOEING;

used to study to train

[my results were so much better then than now]

used to be my motivation to go to school

used to be my drive for everything

CANOEING;

is now still a place to forget all things that bothered me

is now still an escape of all things

but added on to it,

is a reminder of painful and what could have been

get well soon,hazel

get well soon

"work hard, and you will get what you deserve"

i live, breathe, trust this

but believe me, it doesn't apply to all context

i learnt it the hard way,

and i wish that no one ever have to go through it

but then again, we grow from pain and lessons learnt

don't we all?

if i walk would you run

no

if i stop would you come

no

if i say you're the one would you believe me

no,it's not enough

-Try, Asher Book

yesterday and today was a

fucking screaming amplified reminder

never once in my life

had i shivered in westmall coffeebean

never once in my life

had i felt so cold

OTHER THAN THAT VERY BLOODY MONDAY

like you babe,

i wish i could walk outta my life

or at least rip my heart out

but for that fact, WE WILL NOT

we will be better/stronger/tougher

what do say to jumping off the edge

never knowing if there's solid ground below

or a hand to hold or hell to pay

i've had better days

and i've felt much better than now

everything's still raw

sounds, places, people and all

reminds me, still triggers those feelings

it's all being amplified

paths cross and separate

that's just the way of life

let's just make the best of it

in the meantime,

there's nothing i can do

but mend my broken heart