i can't think straight

when someone constantly spouts out

retarded, nonsensical bullshit

while sitting right beside you

my shoutout to my lovely younger brother

yo HOMO; you LOMO

shit i need to poop....

nah...

what daren long does when he's bored! -.-

list of cameras i'ma gonna buy myself

to take pretty pictures with my loved ones [yes ash, you two]

and of course what i love (:

top on the list

1) old-school polaroid

2) canon/nikon dslr

3) lomo camera

4) holga camera [the multi-coloured one; hopefully]

5) multi-lens [is that what you call it?] camera

6) jelly camera [i have this already!!!! say woohoo!]

pretty pictures (:

it's those you love that can make your gloomy mundane day so much better!

i had much fun at coffeebean today

2 more papers 2 more days

counting down to the big week

may our hard work pay off!

common tests are enough to kill me

and it's ain't even comparable to nationals

cause i'm ready for the latter

and nowhere close to being prepared for the former

kill me; NOW

you're pulling me in

just like gravity

(:

national juniors was overwhelming

hitting new timings and getting dissed in the face

pushing along my team and losing in the end

all in all, it was an experience that will follow me as long as i breathe

the camp after it was a double whammy

the senior team was tired and drained

and well, times have definitely changed

i really hope we'll clear all that we need to

and then come nationals,

we'll be really to come back with a vengeance

here goes nothing,

gonna be a flash of days as soon as the sun rises

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am i ready for this marathon?

oh my gawd

truthfully, it's great to see coach today

felt so helpless without mr a and coach for 3-4 whole weeks

(i'm sure the team agrees with me)

and now that the startlist is out

and competition is THIS COMING WEEKEND

i can't help but feel fucked

like supa overwhelmed

and ready to jump off a building fucked

but i will push on

all out and geared up to go all the way,

for the win; for my team

they didn't come

cause they didn't know

they won't come

cause they aren't around

they can't come

cause they have commitments

trying hard not to let it get to me

salt water tastes oh-so-sweet now

we're all waiting for the day

dreading, but awaiting deep down

we'll be going out;

all out

but will it be good enough?

when you know for a fact you're gonna let them down

you find it so hard to stomach the fact that they still stand by you

feeling like you owe them so much

how can this be,

when you're so undeserving

FUCKING WAKE UP YOUR IDEA HAZEL

CAUSE YOU DON'T WANNA LET THEM DOWN

after so long,

we will be defined in that short 3-5 minutes

but what are we fighting so hard for?

it's time to wake up all your idiotic and childish ideas

and work towards something worth being proud of

otherwise, WHY BOTHER?

if you always do what you've always did

you'll always get what you've always got

WHAT DO YOU WANT THIS TIME?

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hell yeah!

for the team, for the gold