on a lighter note;

i had TWO mocha iceblended

finally it is over

although i didn't do as bad as some others did

i will say i totally felt the pain and anguish they felt

being a team really has taught me feel so much differently

i feel so connected with them,

it's as though i feel and see the events through their eyes and heart

the pain/regret/sadness/anguish was surging through me

i couldn't even be happy

it was really heart-wrenching

and the fact that i couldn't do anything to make it better

killed me inside

coach said he expected better,

and i knew i could have done better

there is a lot of "what if"s and "if i had"s

i really wanted to make them proud

i never wanna feel this crappy feeling again

i never want any of them to feel this crappy again

we will work hard to not feel this again

because i have faith

our limit is limitless

THIS IS IT BABY

from tears to cheers

fears and nerves

the day has come and i believe

i believe we as a team will get what we all want

cause we'll put in our all

not our best, but our all

because our limit is limitless

spoke to my elder brother

helped me for awhile

but i'm really not strong enough

no one to talk to

SCHOOL IS DISGUSTING

and the above statement is an UNDERstatement

seriously, just kill me now

all the teachers are already telling us that year is gonna whizz by like lightning

and we all gotta put our best foot forward

and just totally work hard like fucked up crazys

but then, how to have starting burst

when i can't even balance?

surprisingly,

i'm quite motivated for GP

guess it's kudos to my ST

let's just see how long it'll last

i'm gonna spend a bomb on awesome stationery

to motivate me to work hard

or at least put in effort

looking forward?

not really

the hectic crazy stressed

scared shitless year

is here and here to stay and torment

at least year 2s don't have to keep changing classrooms

and getting lost

i'm just hoping i'll stay sane

today was supposed to be a relatively good day

but...

no blackberry

and no vans

it's ohkay,

i'm not very bummed about it anymore

it's just another 356 days

dreams are as far as the horizon

ambitions are as barren as the abandoned

the need for these familiar places

the beauty is strength on its own

strength masked by it's sheer beauty

looking at anything that is remotely canoe related

and my heart starts pounding

i swear, i will die before it comes

don't come please

cause i don't wanna let them down

I LIKE BOYS WHO LIKE THEIR MOTHERS says:

(12:48:02 AM)

sadly, our society is after a mad paper chase

newsflash!

i think my mommy noticed my new piercing

unless she's blind

cause she just shoved the phone

in my ear

which is swollen and hurting like fuck

yeah, screw this

like you all care, right?

favourite singer on youtube!!!

gabe bondoc!

he is the bomb! (:

i really don't wanna go school

should i just quit school?

this is dumb fuck

i think i slept on my new piercing

now it's like swollen and aching

and it's giving me an insane headache

fuck