i regret letting you go

and after so long,

i've realised that what i felt was not hate

but a fear of rejection

how was i to know whether you'll accept me as a friend

i regret the choice of letting anger and fear overtake me

but to live life with no regret is important

so for what i regret i make up

but you choose not to accept and so i let it go

i've tried my very best to step outta my comfort zone

but since it's not reciprocated,

i shall let it slip by

learn to adapt

to expect the unexpected

live life like never before

because you never know when darkness will seize you

see and listen with your heart

cause soon you'll be numbed by reality

love like there's no tomorrow

and dream as high as can be

take whatever comes with strength and vigour

or it will slip away and never come back

never.come.back.

i'm so bored of AMATHS!!!

take me away from all this tension

think,

how am i even gonna be able to work my way up

when all i'm going is down down down

life sucks!

i hate you fake bitch

and i won't hide it away

cause i won't stand for

a single drop of hypocracy

to surge through me

eat the dust

bloody bitch!

i am IN LOVE with the french drama film

i saw on arts central

LES CHORISTES (The Chorus)

and of course Jean-Baptiste Maunier

who played the angellic-faced Pierre Morhange

the choir that provided the vocals and the sountrack for the film is damn good!!!

les petits chanteurs de saint-marc

i'm scoring for the film and the soundtrack!!!

it is much loved!!!

temptations!!!

temptations!!!

temptations!!!

temptations!!!

temptations!!!

on a lighter note,

i went to watch the performance yeaterday

the crosstalk performance by seniors of ypae

it was great!!!

my first time as an audience

the plots were funny

and the scripts were more modernised and teen-friendly

which could really draw more teenager's interest

GREAT JOB!!!

to all the performers!!!

we really need to get together some time!!!

i miss you all like crazy!!!

i know i've been droning on and on about this

but it was probably because i'm telling myself that i can't let yasser go

now i can official say that i'm over the friendship

through and through

i will no longer bother about him

i will not communicate with him

i will not even think about the saddening incident

i will leave him to himself

let him be who he wants to

let him go off with the fake girl

i will disregard this friendship

and i officially declare that yasser is a huge loser liar

and this time,

I REALLY MEAN IT!!!

there are people who live lavishly

not knowing what the world is suffering

but how can we blame them?

they've been brought up to think that money grow on trees

and there is always money that can buy everything

but then again,

their moral compasses are just screwed up

they were blinded from the start

since they enter this world

hence,

they know nothing about the word suffering

their compasses haven't got "third world"

which is really sad

but what is it that me can do?

to remedy this situation?

being a greedy person,

i don't believe in the "you made a difference to that one starfish" story

i mean,there is just so many people to help,

how can you feel good when you know that there are other who are suffering?

but then again,

there is too much

we need more angelina jolie and brad pitt

i know i know,

this is so lame,

random,

and girly-ish

but the the guy at jurong library

in mi uniform is cute!

malay some more!

hehe

oops!

this is so not hazel!!!

life is just so confusing

it's difficult to find the right ties

it really takes time

do you have to take in the fact that you're comfortable with it?

and what about whether you're happy about it?

it takes time

but sometimes it's just so tiring

there are times when they're so great

but then there are times where everything seems wrong

takes time,take time

52 DAYS TO 'O' LEVELS

yes yes,it's less then two months away

now school is just revision,revision,revision

they should just scrape lessons like math or something

during math [e/a] no one's paying attention

cause he is just droning on and on and on

it's crazy!

let us do our own work

and question our doubts if we need to

i DO feel bad that he is like trying so hard

but we don't give a fuck

but it's just the wrong way to work la

I LOVE HISTORY!!!

alrighty.now for the racial harmony day photograghs!!!

THE INFAMOUS A.S.H. [suhailah,afiqa,hazel]

[lifang,hazel,esther]

[clockwise from top-left: esther,hazel,suhailah,nic.c.,afiqa]

[left-right: nic.w.,jagan,suhailah,hazel,lifang]

JAG'S THE CUTEST!!! [lifang,hazel,jagan]

atiqah&hazel

hazel&azwan

hazel&azfar

then sports' day!!!

WE WON BEST CLASS!!! [see that tallest one!?]

on the tracks

with mdm lock being model-isque

hazel and her trophies [missing one though]

(:

i changed my email

so please email me at my current(the kl... one)

and i'll email you my new one

or you could log on to msn

and if i'm online,

you can get my new email

thank you (:

[didn'tknow changing emails was so TROUBLESOME]

i haven't been updating

and actually touching the computer

as i've been training after school everyday

for my sports' day

and it turned out well

with great results

our class won overall class champion

and i won the best individual girls' for the C division

it was great and all our efforts paid off

our tee design was simple but definitely caught people's attention

it was great!

i really wanna thank all those who put in their effort!

thank you 4E5!

[pictures will be uploaded (:]