i can't even begin to say how angry/disappointed i am

it's never a nice feeling

to get ready to go

all that's left is to wait

and wait and wait and wait

and it never happens

fuck.

being the total lazy-ass-bum that i am,

let's recap my wednesday,

oh-so-wholesome-and-well-spent wednesday.

putting myself to bed at say 2am,

i timely woke up at 5am then 8, 9, 10, 11

and finally peeled myself outta bed at 12.

cooked myself and skinny so instant noodles

cause we were too lazy to head out for lunch

so jeremy told me about how some of the ns guys

cook instant like cup noodles

where they just put the noodles in the mass tin

and put in the hot water and wait for it to cook

i tried that and boom!

IT WORKS BITCHES!

no more standing by the hot steaming pot

you can't get any lazier than that

after which i surfed the net, watched tv and gorged myself on snacks

then went to nap again

resurfaced at 6 for dinner and then surfed the net and watched tv

now, i've made myself some green tea and once again

am in front of my macbook

so bottomline, i'm NOT studying

and i'm getting FAT

RAWR

so, i've gone through a really really bad roller coaster ride

regarding my "future"

and, since i don't know who read this space

i won't divulge too much info

let's just say, i'm done with the ride

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secondly, i received my ca results for all three subjects

a B+ and 2 As

surprisingly, and A for math!

(take that mr chan and mdm song! HAH!)

what i am kinda upset about is getting a B+ for english

i know that the marks were greatly affected by ca2

see, ca2 is a group assignment where we have to design a poster

and well, i have faith to say that we did a good job

before i submitted the work, i check, double-checked and TRIPLE-checked

but, when the teacher opened it, the text was all over the place

and she had to adjust it a bit to see the whole poster

so naturally, we were penalized

and since others didn't have a problem with it (since they used photoshop)

my group had to be marked down

she "blamed" it on my lack of skill

in my defense, who said it HAD (and if i don't i will die) to use photoshop?!

i don't even have photoshop

plus, when she showed us past batches' work,

she used ms word to open it

so why did she have a problem with mine?!

and afiqa rised a fair and justified point:

I'M STUDYING ENGLISH

this is bollocks

- - -

anyway, now i'm on study break

exams will be next wednesday to friday

then holidays till oct

please, will everyone pray/hope/wish that i spend my time productively

and with that,

i'm signing off

(oh, and apologies for the LONG hiatus)

WHERE THE FUCK IS MY ARCHIVE?!

SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE?!

):

went to watch a movie alone today

honestly, i'm really proud of myself

happy that i finally got off my ass to go alone

yes, i've done it before

but doing it now, is really important for me

no, i am not detaching myself from my life

nor am i detaching myself from my friends and family

i am just finally giving myself some me time

some time to do things i love,

with myself

why would people to do things they know are bad

and continue to do so even if it means hurting their loved ones?

i am thankful to be surrounded by people unlike the aforementioned group above