so then life brings about many different experiences
some that are eventful and life-changing
others you wished didn't happen to you
for me, i went through one that was both
at first (and actually till now), i questioned the indisputable universe
why it happened to me, despite my efforts
and why the universe was torturing me and putting me through it all
then the aftermath of it all just made me realise just who are those who care
and also, how guilt can bring me such pain
till now i wonder why it all happened and if there were to be a different outcome
how it would have been and how i would have taken it
many people are telling me that this is all a huge painful but nonetheless meaningful lesson
and although i want to agree with them and take it in my stride
i can't
for the fact that it is not a lesson
i didn't learn anything from this
and if i were able to go back in time
i would have altered this part of y history so i never have to go through this
and put my loved ones through this either
it was truly a heart-wrenching episode in my life
all's cast in stone,
at least for this interval in my life