i hate my job

miserable as fuck

arghicannotdrivefornutsfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

iwantmypiercingsandtattoosbutmightendupnotgettingthem

causeitisalltooexpensivefuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

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iwantmypiercingsandtattoosbutmightendupnotgettingthem

causeitisalltooexpensivefuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

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iwantmypiercingsandtattoosbutmightendupnotgettingthem

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i've started reading GMH and KGMH avidly

and the little stories of love, faith and hope really touched my heart

i cried while reading the stories

and my heart warms up with so much faith in humanity

i am also reminded of my grandfather and my uncle

their care and concern for everyone has sincerely touched our souls

and their memories eternally be etched in our hearts and minds

don't decide for me what i should and should not know

don't assume that there are certain parts to a truth i do and do not need to know

don't think an answer, give one

i'm back to the green tea frenzy

so far, since i've sat my butt down at 9 am

i have been at it to my third cup

the only side effect i loathe

is that it makes me pee A LOT

watched this episode with justin

and well, i got reminded of my grandpa

cried quite a bit

and when i was on youtube,

i chanced upon this video

and teared up again

this is truly the most moving performance by Chris Colfer

enjoy, and may my passed loved ones be forever loved and remembered

i was on my way to work,

standing at the bus stop waiting for the bus to arrive

i noticed this guy dressed in black cause he went to throw some rubbish

and since i was standing near the bin, we had a mini stare-down

then after that, he walked over to his girlfriend away from the bus stop

usually people who do that will walk to the other bus stop across the street

but no, they stayed put and out of the girl's bag came a cigarette pack

i was like, damn, why is she smoking?

she will be getting that smoke all over her outfit

but as she turned around, i noticed that her face was heavily clad with make up

and that she wasn't all that attractive

(SORRY! don't mean to say i'm atractive,just...argh! you know what i mean q:)

i couldn't really recall what she wore on top,

it was the shoes that i kept going back to

she was wearing black wedges with those beaded ankle straps

first things first, ZOMG!!!WHY DO PEOPLE WEAR WEDGES?!

second, WTF, NOT NAISE NOT NAISE NOT NAISE!

third, it's really not flattering cause it's chunky and will make you look chunky too!

yes, some say that the chunky-factor depends on the cut and design

but it just don't like that chunk of material, just not flattering

however, fashion is objective, so for those who would die for killa wedges, good for you!

thirdly, when we eventually boarded the bus,

it was packed

and we just moved in as much as possible

i brought my uber huge duffel today, so i admit it was a little bothering

but i could handle it well

so when a group of people started standing up to alight at IMM

i picked up my bag to let them pass

and a few people gave me evil stares

i was thinking, was it a crime to bring a big bag on a public transport?

and i really wanted to say it out loud,

much less, some were fat and had bums the size of my bag

why don't they shove off as well?

gosh, people grow up will you?

lastly, i spotted a seat and sat down,

lo and behold, smoker couple came sitting down in front of me

and you know what?

i know the girl, cause she was my primary school classmate

she used to be quiet and conserved

well, i guess not anymore

she was so (idontknowhowtosaythisnicely)bimbotic

that when her boyfriend fell asleep and leaned over to her side

she just moved forward and continued with her game

leaving her boyfriend swaying and moving behind her back or out over the aisle

my gawd, just let your boyfriend lie on your shoulder?

tsktsktsk, he head was nearly knocked off when this big guy walked passed the aisle...

people are so unexpected

hate kids who think they are fucking awesome

don't get the quirky costume ensembles

but i couldn't care less

those are not part nor are they worth my attention

for those who need that little bit of encouragement

love,gold,connector ring : 3 IN 1!!!

HAHAHA, TRUDAT

got the pictures here

i won't be a prick like every other teen out there

and complain about the transport fares

personally, i don't think it's all that expensive

the most it could go for regular buses and trains,

not counting those special services like express and premium,

would be about 2 dollars plus

that is cheap when you are travelling to another place

what i think the main problem is is that it's hard to keep up with it

when we don't earn an income

i've yet to be paid my first month

so i'm rightly without income

whereas in the future transport will be the least of my problems

but as for now,

it will be a huge headache for me

GAWDDAMNIT

wow, in a blink of an eye it's valentine's day 2011

i still remember last year's one

09S02 boys bought roses for all the girls in the class!!!

and there were balloons too! (:

this year was a little different

but a good difference i guess

(:

i haven't posted in a lot of days

but that was cause i was super busy

CNY was ohkay

visitations for the first two days

bonding with my cousins over drinks and pizza at timbre

53A was awesome as usual

but the power failure at timbre was just a wet blanket

going on and off really dampened the spirit there at substation

but still the company was good

agnes,danny,alvin,sherwin and sean/shawn (:

there was the meet up with the team as well

sending the guys off to bmt was such a bitter-sweet thing

finally our boys are gonna - or try to anyway- turn into real men

now i'm working at my drama school

and becoming an OL

YES, you read correctly, hazel is an OFFICE LADY

siti suhailah, don't you dare laugh

at least i'm doing drama things

so i'm still creative

not like you, doing CPF things for old people and poeple who are getting married or buying a house

HAHAHA, you lame ol q:

oh and i don't dress like one either (:

alrights, all you people out there,

chillax and take care

meet up soon!!! (:

it may not be my place

nor may it stand true for you or your case

but to my juniors, i have somethings to say

your team is small, miniscule in fact,

and the chance of winning a team medal is by far the most impossible

at the rate of your improvements, you might not even enter finals

i wish not to be mean and judgmental, but to be practical and honest

why lie when you yourselves know the truth?

all of you may think that what you are doing is enough

that you are already giving your eternal best

yet, i do not believe it to be the correct mindset

no one will reach their full potential by believing that they have already given their best

if so, how more can you push forth and how more can you excel?

be open to criticisms and corrections

i understand the difficulties of kicking a bad habit

and i know the i-really-did-that?! realisation

accept that we can see your whole better than you yourself

and that we do not criticise for the fun of it but for your own good

of course we want success for you

it is never easy to endure the horrendous training programmes

the pain and mental barriers of each exercise or set

yet if you give up once, the next time will come faster and more furious

telling yourself you can do it is never enough

remember that you are not alone and look around you

you have your team and they want the same as you,

to finish proud and strong

then look around again,

your team is indeed not alone

there are other people who are vying for the very same thing

that piece of shining bronze, silver and gold

for every step you fall back, they move forward

the race doesn't start race day

it has already begun

lastly, believe that everything asked of you has a reason

not only will it build towards your final showdown

it will build you from within

nothing is done just for the fun of it

imbibe these words

not because i am your senior

but because i've walked the same path

and experienced the same pain, anguish, confusion and burning desire

i wish all of you the best of luck

i used to think i have too many things to do online

like the moment i flip my macbook open

i'll be flooded with so many things to do

i won't have time to finish

but ever since i came back from my europe trip

i've totally lost touch of the routine

now, i'm coming on

with absolutely nothing to do within the first 5 minutes

now i just do the following:

1) check blog for any tags

2) check my email

3) check my friends' sites

4) check youtube for any new featured videos

5) blank

6) maybe give my luck a go at yahoo for any interesting news

7) erm....

AM I GETTING OLD?!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

(:

this is unbelievable;

i feel so foolish and guilty

foolish cause i let it slide and drag and get worse

guilty cause i brought my friend into this

something i vouched for is not turning out like what it used to be

why do they need to make a simple thing into such a complicated system?

WHAT WAS SO BAD ABOUT THE PREVIOUS SYSTEM?!

you keep changing

and we,those on the lower end of the foodchain,suffers

we are not fucking free labour

so man up/quicken up and bloody pay us already

and also,have the friggin' balls to inform us

or at least reply a gawddamn text when you get one

MOTHERFUCKINGASSHOLE