i'm tired of living up to expectations i never asked for

people create and associate expectations without your consent

and sometimes without your knowledge

sometimes just based on their own assumptions

and then put the blame on you

and display disappointment when you can't deliver

and then it's your fault

but i did not ask for you to expect anything of me

i didn't say i could do it or fulfill any of the standards you paired me with

so it was all a one-sided affair

and i didn't force you to

so please put the blame on yourself and yourself only

I NEVER ASKED FOR IT,

SO PISS OFF AND FUCK OFF

MONDAY WAS CLASS OUTING AT SENTOSA!!!

loads of stories

[that mean something to me, but might just appear redundant to you guys q:]

story 1:

on my way to sentosa, i was on bus 188

at a particular stop,

a sudden loud boom sounded and startled everyone

people were looking around

and a few seconds after the boom, a long vehicle carrying concret slabs passed

i'm thinking it was the culprit of the boom

since the securing cables were a tad loose

and the road was bumpy

the boom really sounded like a bomb gone off

scary yet, erm...

just scary

story 2:

sentosa was fun!

the entire thing with my classmates [well, a portion of it]

whether prepping to enter sentosa

and at sentosa itself

and then back to vivo

WAS EPIC FUN!!!

thank you lovelies! (:

story 3:

marks & spencer was having a crazy promotion for it's redcurrant puffs

and 6 of us shared and each got a box

for everyone out there,

HAZEL HERE LOVES M&S FOOD!!! (:

*bigs bigs hints*

(:

via Life's Colours

it's the trainings and team love that got me through

EVERYTHING

(:

alden, i meant what i said

you are my hero tonight

just like you are mom, everyday

-ghost whisperer

WANT WANT WANT!!!

prelims

prelims

prelims

that's what everyone is talking about

CHILL PEOPLE!

the universe will still exist!

i have to choice but to

cause parents say so

i can't wait to get this whole joke over with

it is all a huge joke isn't it?

a whole fraction of the singaporean population

will end up no where in the local universities

but they still fight like there is a chance

however it is not cause they want to prove the statistics wrong

but cause they've no choice

what kind of society is this?

a practical and meritocratic one

how fucked up and stupid it all is

just hold on for awhile longer

you know 50 days is too long

but also too short of a time

this sucks

I ABSOLUTELY NEED AN INTERVENTION

I DO NOT, DO NOT, WANT TO STUDY

I GUESS I REALLY NEED TO HEAR FRIENDS REMIND ME

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN

SO I STAY ON TRACK

HONG IS HANGING IN THERE WITH ME

AND SO IS BBGIRL AND ASH

AND EEHONG

ARGH FUCK, WHO INVENTED STUDYING?!

fatboy's ic is PINK again!

YAY! (:

it's times like this that i crave for time and comfort

i have people who constantly express care and concern for me

sometimes at times i least expect

and usually at the right time

humans, or at least me, tend to take things for granted

i tend to let things slip

i used to be the one who looks out for everyone

but slowly i slacked and now i'm the one who is surprised

when i received random caring texts or reminders

thankYOUS to those who touched my life

my decision may not be approved or might even be frowned upon

but it is eventually my life and my choice

i'm secretly wishing

i'll miss it and the school will kick me out

i really can't be bothered

why'd you have to change your mind?

SHOPPING!!!!

NEED MONEY

AND HENCE

HAZEL, THOU SHALT NOT SPEND EXCESSIVELY

THINK OF MY FUTURE/MY PLAN

and MY AB

Muse |myoōz| |mjuːz| |mjuz|noun(in Greek and Roman mythology) each of nine goddesses, the daughtersof Zeus and Mnemosyne, who preside over the arts and sciences.• ( muse) a woman, or a force personified as a woman, who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.The Muses are generally listed as Calliope (epic poetry), Clio (history), Euterpe (flute playing and lyric poetry), Terpsichore (choral dancing and song), Erato (lyre playing and lyric poetry), Melpomene (tragedy), Thalia (comedy and light verse),Polyhymnia (hymns, and later mime), and Urania (astronomy).ORIGIN late Middle English : from Old French, or from Latin musa, from Greek mousa.

days and dates

not easy to forget

please please just ebb away

VERDICT;

IMMA GO SLEEP!!!

fuck fuck fuck

i was planning to sleep at 2am

for the hecking math mock later

but i conveniently lost track of time while surfing the net

i was only aware when i was so freaking tired

i shut off and saw the clock reading 3am

showered and all, i felt hungry and still had to dig for mf15

i can't find my gawdforsaken math "tools"

and i'm stuck between sleeping or staying up

fuck fuck fuck

live for the moment?

sounds harmless

but honestly, i believe it should be practiced with caution

weigh the pros and cons

and bring in the potential consequences

people who make decisions solely on the moment

without processing the aftermath

are irresponsible and juvenile

THINK PEOPLE, THINK

got this off leloveimage

you never know till you try

like when i tried the pear drops

from marks & spencer

i bought them cause they were on offer q:

and also cause i really needed that sugar rush

now, i'm in love with them

and won't stop buying and sucking on these hard-boiled candies!

you never know till you try

i go at my own pace

and i live for i am my own person

BABE, LET'S GET TATTS TOGETHER!

i like lights,

don't know why

i hope you people out there

enjoy the photographs

photographs dated from september 2nd

were all original and not taken from any website

(:

would've been a perfect shot

but life isn't perfect right?

we've been through many things

now let's cheer for the next many things

presenting SHORT STUFF!!!

the power of hair-flicking

the sun was HORRENDOUS!