do you remember

do you think about the past

do you believe in miracles

or magic and fairy dust

need me some icecream and a long long long run

changing and evolving

i don't wish to backtrack to days i am not proud of

give me strength

raining in the heavy rain

awesome shits

i just wanna break down,cry and die

today just sorta passed without me knowing what was really going on

i think thursday is my favourite day

not only is it the shortest day for me

but only one tutorial class

and it's the second last day of the school week!

oh the thrills of school!

-.-

i want so many things at the moment

sigh

i study cause it's my duty

duty as a daughter and a student

how i wish i can do away with it

the mere act of thinking about it is insufficient

it's all just but i dream, just big talk

it's the act of wanting it so badly

you show us your devotion will you be near that possibility

we didn't dream from day one that we'll get that shine

we didn't even dare dream of obtaining even that little speck of coppery glory

we didn't think we could on day one

unlike so, you all talk big and dream big

commendable since it's serves as motivation

but are you sure you have what it takes?

no aggression and no one showing you want it bad enough

if so, you'll lose out

lose out cause you don't want it bad enough

i couldn't have asked for more

[points to my brain/mind]

"this is my biggest muscle"

it seems i could only push my limits physically

with my teammates beside me

but in this race for an alphabet that's gonna determine my future

i am unable to push hard

way to go!

-.-

i thought we promised to talk it out?whatever happened?

not that i don't wanna sleep

i can't

worried for L

hoping for C

undone planning for A and K

thinking of C

HOW?!

ahhh!!!!!!!

gonna die come 8am

though i haven't been going shopping

just went out for one or two days

[separate occasions and not on the sole purpose of getting things]

i've yet again unleashed my inner shoe junkie

seeing footwear that i will kill to get!

argh, and i thought the RED VANS my lovely classmates got me were enough to suppress this junkie

I WAS SO FRIGGIN' WRONG!

1) red vans [no-lace; nautical feel

2) blue vans [refer to (1)]

3) red pumps from marks&spencer

4) killa heels from F21

5) sneakers from puma

6) pleather flats from haji lane victoria jomo

somebody kill me;

inner shoe junkie is going crazy!

once upon a time

we didn't even dare to complain

now,

times have changed

i really hope to see them wake up their bloody idea

cause i'm losing the drive to herd

a flock so unwilling and ungiving

loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you

but trusting that they won't

flowers;

beautiful yet short-lived

months of labour yet days of splendour

they say art mimics life

i say nothing is anything without life

at times i can't help but feel as though my life is screwed up

fucked up and just a whole lot of bullshit

makes me feel like giving up so badly

be it ego/pride/willpower

i take it in my stride

i wanna throw my As in your faces

so watch me fly,motherfuckers

LEGACY

yes, i've work to do

no, i'm still procrastinating

-.-

though medals might mark the achievements we made

it's the people who etch the legacy

hand in hand, ready for battle

we did good, partner

we dreamt big

and got it

partner and k4 girls,

i couldn't have done it without all of you (:

once again;

i faltered and i failed you

what is wrong with me?

i've gotta stop being so insensible

talk to me

for once;

i choose to give up

just tonight

i'd give anything to go through it all again

nothing could have been possible without what we've gone through

and it will not become just another memory

it has become legend

you all were truly an inspiration (:

i will strike fear in their hearts

and i will give my absolute

i will give my 100%

or die doing my best

i don't know what's going on leave

and i wish i could find out why it all turned out like that me

maybe it is just all me to start with alone

so many times you've been the best you could cause

on the other hand, i've never matched up i

repeatedly i brought to you a frown think

right after you choose to overlook the past i'll

you can do better, better without me explode

soon

kill me now

there's always gonna be another mountain

i'm always gonna make it move

always gonna be an uphill battle

sometimes i'm gonna have to lose

ain't about how fast i get there

ain't about what's waiting on the other side

it's the climb

- the climb; miley cyrus

but i won't hesitate no more, no more

it's cannot wait,

i'm yours

- i'm yours; jason mraz