Tuesday, March 30, 2010

when i've done my part to improve
when i've actually tried to put in effort
i didn't expect to see immediate results
or fantastic results straight away

but i didn't expect to fail to terribly as well


you must be thinking why i don't listen in your class
why i'm just so fucked up and full of attitude
well,let me break it down for you
1) you suck at your job [seriously,no joke]
2) you're obviously against me [yes it's that obvious, but luckily the feeling's mutual]
3) you said you'll help me, but you didn't [so i can do the same with my effort]
4) i tried and i failed terribly, what more is there to be said?

if i'm a math idiot, i am one
who can change that?
DEFINITELY NOT YOU

and i just don't have the will to try again

your attempt at talking to me
or punishing me is to no avail
cause i just don't FUCKING respect you
you are just a ***** to me
and i just adhere so i don't waste my classmates' time
and also to not let you have your way
watch me; motherfucker

Monday, March 29, 2010

today has been an overall tough day

i was trying to be mentally strong despite all that's going on
it might have been an ordinary day for anyone else
but the personal battles i encountered today was not ordinary at all


i don't need you to judge what i do or decide

Sunday, March 28, 2010

if i blow it this time
where will i end up

will i get a second chance?

so much is riding on it
yet there's so little i can do
or accomplish
i seriously feel like a failure

Saturday, March 27, 2010

there's a saying;
give respect to gain respect

similarly, if you don't respect the sport,
how do you think you can gain the respect of those who truly respect the sport?
no offense to those who are reading this
but don't you think you owe it to everyone to give your all?

even though i know i'm gonna lose the race
i still go all out
i don't pull out nor do i just slow paddle
i whack till i pant and heave
cause i owe it to my competitors to give my all and a good fight
and of course my team and people who are behind me throughout

i feel that if you don't have the right attitude and mentality
then you're in the wrong place
having the right mindset will get you far,
in the middle it's all about physicality
but then the end is all back to mindset
if you ain't strong, even the strongest [physical strength-wise] will fall

if it applies to you
please think HARD and DEEP

canoeing is NOT a leisure sport
it requires a deep sense of passion and willpower
and definitely needs persistence and strength

ARE YOU READY TO GIVE YOUR ALL
AND FIGHT TO THE FINISH?
carpe diem
sunburnt and loving it!
we've resumed training and
honestly we've got much to catch up on

adding on, the weather's being a bitch
going rainy and blazing-hot all in a matter of minutes
everyone who went for training is burnt

so please, everyone, whether you're training or not
DRINK LOADS OF WATER and STAY IN THE SHADE!

with that, a shoutout to my team,
TIME TO CHARGE PEOPLE!
NO TIME TO WASTE! (:

Friday, March 26, 2010

got a bag from the team!
thank you to the two who "lied" to me
and went to buy the bag! (:

pictures soon, am so fucking tired

but lastly, a shoutout to those who made my day!
am touched/thankful/grateful to the max
(:

Thursday, March 25, 2010

THANK YOU ALL WHO MADE ME SMILE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER TODAY!
(: (: (:
YOU ALL MADE MY DAY AWESOME; despite the horrid paper!

so i got flowers from my girlfriends!

and also a really really cool shirt from the class!


and also the many many texts from people i love and care (:

then there's coffeebean surprise too! (:

TODAY IS HAPPY MUCH!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

another year
hell yeah!
another year!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

i can't think straight
when someone constantly spouts out
retarded, nonsensical bullshit
while sitting right beside you

my shoutout to my lovely younger brother

yo HOMO; you LOMO
shit i need to poop....







nah...


what daren long does when he's bored! -.-
list of cameras i'ma gonna buy myself
to take pretty pictures with my loved ones [yes ash, you two]
and of course what i love (:

top on the list
1) old-school polaroid
2) canon/nikon dslr
3) lomo camera
4) holga camera [the multi-coloured one; hopefully]
5) multi-lens [is that what you call it?] camera
6) jelly camera [i have this already!!!! say woohoo!]

pretty pictures (:
it's those you love that can make your gloomy mundane day so much better!
i had much fun at coffeebean today

2 more papers 2 more days
counting down to the big week
may our hard work pay off!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

common tests are enough to kill me
and it's ain't even comparable to nationals
cause i'm ready for the latter
and nowhere close to being prepared for the former
kill me; NOW

you're pulling me in
just like gravity
(:

Thursday, March 18, 2010

national juniors was overwhelming
hitting new timings and getting dissed in the face
pushing along my team and losing in the end
all in all, it was an experience that will follow me as long as i breathe

the camp after it was a double whammy
the senior team was tired and drained
and well, times have definitely changed

i really hope we'll clear all that we need to
and then come nationals,
we'll be really to come back with a vengeance

Thursday, March 11, 2010

here goes nothing,
gonna be a flash of days as soon as the sun rises

geepeepaperboatcontrolnationaljuniors

am i ready for this marathon?

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

oh my gawd
truthfully, it's great to see coach today
felt so helpless without mr a and coach for 3-4 whole weeks
(i'm sure the team agrees with me)
and now that the startlist is out
and competition is THIS COMING WEEKEND
i can't help but feel fucked
like supa overwhelmed
and ready to jump off a building fucked
but i will push on
all out and geared up to go all the way,
for the win; for my team

Monday, March 08, 2010

they didn't come
cause they didn't know
they won't come
cause they aren't around
they can't come
cause they have commitments

trying hard not to let it get to me
salt water tastes oh-so-sweet now

Sunday, March 07, 2010

we're all waiting for the day
dreading, but awaiting deep down
we'll be going out;
all out
but will it be good enough?

Thursday, March 04, 2010

when you know for a fact you're gonna let them down
you find it so hard to stomach the fact that they still stand by you
feeling like you owe them so much
how can this be,
when you're so undeserving

FUCKING WAKE UP YOUR IDEA HAZEL
CAUSE YOU DON'T WANNA LET THEM DOWN

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

after so long,
we will be defined in that short 3-5 minutes
but what are we fighting so hard for?

it's time to wake up all your idiotic and childish ideas
and work towards something worth being proud of
otherwise, WHY BOTHER?

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

if you always do what you've always did
you'll always get what you've always got

WHAT DO YOU WANT THIS TIME?

Monday, March 01, 2010

timedsetstechniquesprintsrunpullupgymdrypushup
hell yeah!
for the team, for the gold