when we truly realize that we are all alone is when we need others the most

- Ronald Anthony

so many things i wanna do,

but i only have 24 hours

it's now or never

push on team,

for we've come so far

a million and one things

coursing through my mind

wearing me out

DEAR JOHN IS OFFICIALLY OUT IN SINGAPORE

BUT WHERE WILL I BE?

IN FRIGGIN' SCHOOL!!!!

GONNA CATCH IT NO MATTER WHAT

NO. MATTER. WHAT.

if i were to say,

life is full of crap

i'm confident to say that no one will say yes

but if i were to say,

life is full of greatness

i'm also confident to say that no one will disagree

it all lies in the mindset

when we choose to focus on the negativity of things,

we will project the negativity onto our lives and amplify it

when we choose to focus on the positivity of things,

everything will seem much better and positive

but now lies the real question

what does it take for one to be able to focus on the positive things ONLY

man are prone to take the easy way out

feeling sorry for themselves is way easier than perking oneself up

for me,

i am one who lacks the strength to pull through

what will i ever do with myself

should i or should i not?

get an itouch

for:

1 it has a much bigger memory than my current ipod nano

2 i could really use the new earphones

3 i can surf the bloody internet

4 i can play lame games

5 i can be one of those up-and-rising elitists (: [hi daddy!]

against:

1 it's 200 hundred bucks gone

2 my current nano still serves me well

3 i could save up the money

4 itouch is overrated? [gawd hazel, you own a mac]

5 its fragile and i can't just chuck it in my bag

6 what happened to wanting the ipod classic?

HELP!

seriously,

just fuck off

and suddenly, when i look into his eyes,

i saw such beauty, it was beyond words.

"why'd you always walk backwards?"

"only when i'm not with you"

"but why?"

"because i never want you to see me turn my

back and leave"

and it was then i knew, he was the one.

i'm really reconsidering quitting school

and no, i'm not just saying it to get attention

or whatever you freaks out there think

fuck, i don't even care what you think

cause you are not me so you don't know what's going on

sometimes i can't get why i have to go through it all

i really could use somebody to talk to now

like help me out with my life

cause it's seriously

screwed.up.

RESPECT is earned

not given out

seriously, if my canoeing career is not on the line

i'll let you know just what i think

and just not to keep you in suspense,

try figuring this out:

FUCK YOU

speechless

respect

although i'm not a christian,

this quote struck me

but am i up for it?

rise up; this matter is in your hands.

we will support you, so take courage and do it

Erza 10:4

not. good. enough

i've been roaming around,

i was looking down at all i see

painted faces fill the places i can't reach

you know that i could use somebody

you know that i could use somebody

-use somebody, kings of leon

new year this year is different from the past years

minor changes here and there

i don't know if i should be feeling good about it

but one this i know for sure is that

i've got more plans! (:

spend time with the team yesterday at mr a's place

pick me up;

cause i'm falling

feeling like crap

i need the beach; pronto!

the end of 2010 valentine's day

somewhat a sad one for couples i guess

but what do i know?

i'm single and i don't mind (:

anyway, i just don't get it when

you are in the dumps and people ask you to chill

all it does is just gets you more frustrated and fuelled up

sigh, maybe it's just me

i need someone mature

new year new clothes?

chinese new year to me is not outta the norm

yes, indeed there is the addition of new clothes and goodies to munch on

but the gathering are oh-so-normal

i am thankful for being born into this close-knitted family

if you are very specific,

then my closer cousins and relatives are kinda distant

but we are close (minus those EXTREMELY distant ones),

my family is really close and still has it's element of tradition

i really appreciate the fact that chinese new year is still important for my family

and we don't have families that go on vacation

or ones that don't even turn up

and for that, i know i'm blessed (:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:

tonnes to choose from

but what to choose?!

argh, my fuck

expectations and standards

so suffocating so effed up

why the fuck must I live up to YOUR expectations

i can't think of why this all had to unfolded

but then again, it's a short break from school

hopefully i get some catching up done(right lydia?!)

haa,right, gotta go for lunch,

then STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!!!

it's movies like these that restore my faith in humanity

and reinstates my belief that kindness exist

i realised that on 3 separate occasions

i wore my starbucks top and went into coffeebean for coffee

ironic much?

or i should say hypocrite?

haa, i will TOTALLY buy a coffeebean top!

as time rushed by;

we have no time to slow down

we can't seem to talk small steps and enjoy the tranquility

we are all taking long strides,

trying to outrun the others

when all we end up doing is killing ourselves

we are conformed to a blind paper chase so as to be able

to climb a non-existent social ladder to "stay afloat"

in this dog-eat-dog world

i'm extremely tired and falling behind

he who believes

shall succeed;

he who falters

shall perish

sweat,heart,effort,blood

all in exchange for a goal so intangible

it's time to call upon a higher power

and start believing

all this childish, lowhanded tactics have gotta stop

how old are you?five?

you are the world's biggest dickhead

continue to act like one

you grudge-bearing fucktard

ever felt like you can't even lift the bottle up to quench your thirst?

this is it?

days are now like hours on end

ohmyeffinggawd!!!

i'm gonna break down into a million pieces soon!