i wanna do so many things now

run to the beach

drink like i have the world's weight on my shoulders

scream and punch so fucktard

smash some glass

shop like a millionaire

i just wanna say i don't care

i expected it

but a part of me still held out

hoping it might change

but no, i didn't

and YOU,

you have a choice,

you might have a say

but you are so set that it's doesn't make a difference

if you're so pissed at the world and everyone

then i don't have anything to say to you

you have a chance

I DON'T

fuck it/fuck this

time is running out

and i am nowhere near being ready

i am so done for

this is gonna be an easy loss

GO TO HELL HAZEL

if only i have to guts

if only...

your smile is powerful

it turns my legs to jelly

oh i like you

but you never seem to notice

the fact that i can count the days on my hands,

the pressure and stress and nerves are becoming extremely overwhelming

just crushing me under its weight

i wanna say fuck this and leave

but i don't wanna nor do i choose to

because...

you should see what i ate today

i can feel the fats accumulating

with every single bite

gawd!

i hate swimming!

ankles popping

what a christmas

-.-

he lied

hell doesn't end

):

i feel damn awful

on the brink of getting sick

sigh, on christmas

sad shit

everyday,

i die and then get resurrected

it's seriously WORSE than hell

but today's programme was the sex!

[please pardon the crudeness]

值得高兴

(:

couldn't help smiling although my arms were about to fall off

on a sad note;

i can't help but think about it

no matter how hard i try

):

(: + ): = |:

first thing we said,

"uncle, can you take us to the nearest KFC"

WTF?!

learn to speak baby talk

just double up!

(:

today is a crappy day

but starbucks cheered me up a tad

the walk after was (: too

sigh, but after that was crappy

the pain is excruciating

i swear

):

seriously,

i can't wait for next week

when christmas comes!

(:

i miss it

oh-so-much

):

"nothing, nothing i can do

to keep my heart away from you

i can't help it

i can't tell you how much i try"

-try [original] melissa polinar

today was _______

actually, i'm surprised how i could endure so long

had fun tonight!

thank you!

no recipe book

[mommy loaned it to her friend]

i'll have to rely on memory

idiot

it's so hard to hold on

when there is nothing/no one to reach out to

i'm guilty

how can i be so clumsy

i want optimus prime back

sorry mr a

i guess i shouldn't use it anymore

PUSH

we gotta push ourselves so much harder

even i'm not pushing hard enough

i feel shitty everytime

yes, i'm shag at the moment

but then when i'm on the bus home

i'm thinking whether i could have done better

PUSH

can't wait for this to be over

this has been the longest yet

soon soon!

then time with the team will make it better!

(:

should i should i not

tough question

one tough cookie

i'm always posting short posts nowadays

citrus acid is enough to remind me of my blisters

my left hand is honestly rotting

gawd!

news is smiling-inducing

(:

i need more of what i can't get

it's something i need to build

it's something i need so bad to gain

argh!

today was made better at the end

when we all started singing

it was fun

(:

can't wait!

welcome to hell week

can't wait for the week to end

another day; another reminder how far we are

please let this be worthwhile

pain/sore/ache

gawd,

feeling like a pussy -.-

"you're doing a great job!

come on, awesome!

just keep moving!"

down&out

gotta stop thinking about it

courage;

i need but i don't have

my heart dropped

i swear i wished i could be alone

and i played the same song over and over again

trying very hard to defy gravity

and keep my tears in my eyes

don't

today's morning was epic

not a good thing

but still epic

一山还有一山高

i truly understand

selfless/selfish

only a thin line of difference

where do you stand?

my left hand was put through hell

tomorrow will be, please pardon me,

orgasmic

i have sinned