yes!

it's raining!

gum boots and puddles!

if only...

on a lighter note,

caught julie&julia with jinxuan jie today

it was a great time

and the movie is really good [my opinion]

and i really hope i find a really awesome husband

like julia child found paul child

and julie powell found eric powell

hazel |ˈhāzəl|

nounlack of success
See also: weakling

it doesn't matter what people say

it doesn't matter when people say you'll fail

it doesn't matter when people ask you to give up

it doesn't matter when you scream you wanna give up

what matters is when you listen to your scream

and believe it should be heard

what matters is when you answer your scream and give up

I AM A FAILURE

FUCKING WEAKLING

a life without a life

the mask is wearing off

the calling is heard

i'm just ignoring it,

just so i can be where i am

what you said is right,

i totally agree with you

until they decide to make a change

we are just gonna be stagnant

but hurry! before the chance is gone

getting anal/heated/tired

need to get some timeout

need to get some sleep

my mom is trying to get me drunk

so i can sleep

feeding me tiramisu

[a really really strong alcoholic one we got from a italian restaurant]

but yeah,she's kidding

things that spin round and round and round

ferris wheel [london eye]

chair swing[i think]

ceiling fan

carousel

earth

wind mill

clock hands

cotton candy

anal day

anal weather

anal everything

money makes the world go round

and round and round and round

a FULL day of pw is just anal

maybe it's just me

but why are you so evil/mean/full of yourself?

how can you treat that person like that?

i really can't believe you are such a person

____ my ass!

you ain't acting like you say you are

puh-lease,you're acting like you are some friggin' goddess

look yourself in the mirror,

cause life reflects you

you act like that, someone's gonna do the same thing to YOU

you are just FULL OF SHIT!

OPOPOPOPOPOPOPOPOPOP

gonna kill me soon

argh!

i don't know what the teachers/vendors are looking for

cause i am honestly stumped

oh yeah, you got me thinking maybe i'm not cut out for this

i need INSIGHTS

when life gets you down;

just climb right back up

when life leaves you behind;

just catch up

when life seems to be so bleak and grey;

just take out your colour palette and paint rainbows all day

I MISS:

yppae peeps [specific few]

blonde&yida

the times when we reigned the school [HAHAHAHAHA]

the old times, when we were all closer and not full of this drama

i wanna _____

cause we once had so much faith and potential

but now we're just deceiving and wary

so much faith yet so much doubt

HAZEL; says: (10:13:52 PM)

• sigh,...you know, i had always wished the team was a class as well
• haha..
• like we train,learn,study together?
• haha

norman says: (10:17:06 PM)

• that would be really really really cool

HAZEL; says: (10:17:28 PM)

• haha...yeah...then at one point i guess the whole class will sleep
• haha..

norman says: (10:21:05 PM)

• teachers will totally hate this class
• 09SCANOEING

HAZEL; says: (10:21:25 PM)

• haha...
• HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
• ohkay, i'm blogging this!

ZOMG! i haha alot!

and i remind myself of carmen

hey girl!just thinking of you

come to think of it,

both of us got our work cut out for us tomorrow!

you with your parents and me with ms m

ALL THE BEST!

and take care (:

i will never let you fall

i'll stand up for you forever

i'll be there for you through it all

- your guardian angel; red jumpsuit apparatus

i really hope i can stay

hate taking paper after paper

this is boring

what's so difficult?

just do it

screw you

all hasn't been well

and to that, i've gotta say is really getting to me

i really wanna just throw in the towel,

but it's so bloody irresponsible

but then, i'm being driven insane

what with the other pressures i'm experiencing

it's not easy keeping my cool

and then i start to cuss alot

damn, eff my life

KILL ME NOW

things to do

but no drive

no point talking about things that i can't change

but sometimes i really question why i ended up like that

yup, whatever wrong did i do in my previous life

to be living such a ______ life now?

HAA,

i just really don't wanna go through with anymore of this

really, this crap is all just too overrated

HAPPIER POST

yes, just for you!

(:

today is blah

like i'm really sure i won't make it

so when i go home

first thing i'm gonna do is

RANK MY CHOICES

sigh, cheers to my blah life!

belief |biˈlēf|

noun

( belief in) trust, faith, or confidence in someone or something

now,change your belief

cause it's driving you insane

and me off the cliff

i will die tomorrow

although it is useless and redundant

she is pissing the shit outta me

and she is bloody selfish

-.-

my life fucks shit

stay positive

why'd you have to leave

without saying goodbye

why'd you have to turn your back

and leave me all alone

why'd you have to pack your things

and shatter the dreams we all shared

sigh, not blame [don't get me wrong]

just really saddened by all this

sometimes faith doesn't get you far

and you wished you know how to remedy it all

try to make things less painful

for there are times you just wanna give up

think of the things you've done so far

from an angle it's all not worth to let go now

but on the other hand

you know it's still ohkay to step back and watch

then go another route

for life is too short for failure and regret

the hectic week is coming to an end

and i'm thankful for the understanding pw lovelies

they were absolutely fun to work with

and definitely willing to commit whenever needed

how much they can

the mcs performance was WOW

and i seriously loved it!

hope you like the pretty roses i got

in full bloom and in the prettiest shad of purple

<3

i guess i'm carving for something i won't get

wishing for something that won't happen

taking a slice i can't stomach

and thinking of dreams as though i can reach it

today was a ____________ day

it started out really fun,

with me being absolutely high with no cares of the world

[but of course, it brought about talking from others,

i sensed it later on. but seriously whatever]

then during my event,

i was feeling a mixture of frustration and spirit

the adrenaline pumping around me was crazy

but it ended on a sour note and a bruised pride

pw was different

didn't know the school sold such good food,

[or maybe i was just hungry]

and we were all tired and smelly

ending at nine,

i'm extremely tired

this is going to be a HECTIC week ):

你要我说什么?

you render me speechless

on a lighter note:

i have gain respect and admiration

toward some people today

you remind me never to be too quick with my verdict

there is a fine line between poking fun

and being downright mean

you better check yourself before you hurt someone

with your bloody mean attitude

one day, her father went for work and never came back

the young girl sat by the window

till bright skies turned black and the food turned cold

looking out at the empty garage

the young girl told herself that her father was just around the corner

but minutes turned to hours and the night turned to day

the girl laid in bed clutching her favourite doll

she felt so alone,like an abandoned toy

her tears have dried as she waited in vain

the doorbell rang, she dashed to receive her father

but was greeted by two men dressed in blue

"hey sweet hon," one said

smiling a smile she knew was fake, he asked for her leave

towing her dreaded heart, she dragged her limp body to the kitchen

from there she heard, the heavy delivery of news she feared

"your husband was in a vehicular accident,

and has not survived" the other solemnly informed her mother

as shock contorted the beauty her mother held

the girl rushed out to her mother,catching the crumpling mass

grabbing at her delicate heart, the mother sobbed tears of grief

the child held her mother so dear, enveloping her mother in whatever love she could summon

the sheer sadness washed over her like a tsunami

reality hitting her hard and brutally

and in an instant she felt the world's weight land on her tiny shoulders

the men in blue stood by the doorway

witnesses to the vulnerable pair

raw and in the flesh, emotion and true love eluding

one day, her father went for work and never came back

the young girl sat by the window

till bright skies turned black and the food turned cold

looking out at the empty garage

she knew she couldn't see her father

but her father will watch over her

from above,with all his heart

if i walk would you run

if i stop would you come

if i say you're the one would you believe me

-try [fame 2009 remake] by asher book

he's a hottie!

with a voice to boot

but i realise i love choral singing

chorus over any strong voice

of course, power singing is awesome too!

watched fame, the 2009 remake

the story line entails the path these talented ones take

to achieve their dreams

it showcases the brutal reality and harsh facts

we all have to endure to make our dreams come true

but, if you are expecting showcase of the craft like step up 1/2

or make it happen, then you'll be disappointed

cause it's more about the struggle then the end result

also, the original movie, 1980 version

the 2009 remake is almost an exact replica

just a tad "modernised"

the 1980 is more raw and honest in a sense

with more dramatic expression

it's more real, everything and the pinch of salt

vulgar and obscene and a higher level of talent

it is not played down at all like in the 2009 remake

was watching from g's to gents

and well, something mr bently's mom, mrs harriet watkins

and she said something very wise

cause one of the guys,

well he ruined his life cause he was thrown into the garbage at birth

and he felt that since no one cared about him,

he ain't gonna care about anyone else

and she said,

if a million dollars were thrown into the garbage,

it'll still be a million dollars

like the worth doesn't drop

and so it applies to guys

what really hit me was although the context she used it in

was a tad extreme,

the logic behind what she said

applies to everything in life

i guess bottomline,

it's what you make outta things,

how much worth you wanna see outta that particular something

please won't you all just

READ MY TEXT PROPERLY?

i put effort into typing as concise a text possible

so why do you have to ask me questions when i have

bloody clearly stated it down?

can't take the effort to bloody read the entire text?

i'm not one who will withhold information

whatever i know, i tell

even if i miss out anything,

i'll text you all about it

please, don't piss me off again

some poeple really lack the common sense

and it's egging at my short fuse

FUCK OFF!

taiwan drama scriptwriters need to learn

when to end the story

it;s going on and on and on...

-.-

saturday night

and im extremely bored

):

argh

i wanna work but my bro won't let me

-.-

on a lighter note:

my bro and i share a common dislike for

demi lovato and wedges

[demi can sing but she is ____ ]

wedges are just popular cause it's easier to walk in

but i'll rather die then be in some ugly footwear

however,i walk awesome in heels, so no issue there (:

i'm still crazy over those heels and ankle boots!

fuck,being a girl with a thing for KILLA heels is not s good thing!

and i'm still thinking about the millions of things i WANT;

yes, it's a want/desire/whatever you call it

i'm so cool;

ice cubes are jealous

i wanna get that on a tee!

i'm changing!

gosh,not sure if it's a good thing or not

yeah i'm pissed

but i don't have the right

went to check out the market near sim lim towers

kinda disappointed

expected to find cool interesting stuff

but what we saw were repetitive stuff

and hightech things

even these kinds market are being modernised

had fun with some from the class on wednesday

supposed to be a class outing

but only 7 could make it

more pictures when i get it! (:

leaves swirl in the wind

cattails sway

as the girl stare out the window

the first snowdrop start to fall

gazing at the stars

twinkling so bright

the owl seemed to call into the night

silently the stones and steps

put on a coat of white

as the girl stare out of the window

out at the quiet night

the wind could me rushing pass me

and i won't care

seeking solace in words,

i tried to create a world better than my own

"Rain stung once again. Petra Greene walked into the darkness."

once again, time has ran out

it's up to me, to make the most outta it

with doubts, i trudge forward

if you saw the look on my face

when i left the examination hall

you'd know how i fared

and won't ask

doing badly at my better subjects

really was the sign

i am stupid beyond help

the title of this photo is "organised crime"

if only life were so organised

if only life were so witty

if only,if only

i once wrote (in my chinese composition)

"人是自私的，我宁愿背叛我的良心也不想把自己送进虎口"

thinking back,

i wonder where i got the guts to write this

because we all know it's true

but how many of us are willing to admit it?

HAHA,think tank time

all you gotta do is

step forward

to realise you don't belong anywhere

for everything around is fake and fictitious

cause the idea of leaving was so surreal

until NOW

HAHAHA;

but i still love them