SHUT UP VOICE;

if i die,you die too

my mantras don't work

i feel like half my life is being mapped out for me,

and i didn't even agree to it

fuck, i didn't sign some bloody contract,

but then i'm just doing what is required of me,

deemed by the society

and thousands of people preach

for you to follow my heart

more of follow what society deem fit

to me,

the real failures are those people,

like me,

who have absolutely no idea what they want in life

do you feel lost?

like being stuck in the middle of wall street

and every single person is rushing past you,

knowing exactly where they wanna go

and you're just like "erm, what next?"

is it just me?

or are you quoting me?

me no likey

books,nooks, and centrifuge

all sound the SAME to me

i'm just studying for the sake of studying

i love a cold windy rainy night!

(:

MY HEAD IS HURTING

LIKE TWENTY THOUSAND OGRES ARE POUNDING ON THE INSIDE

SCREW YOU!

" ' Every experience is meant to be helpful, not hurtful.' For a moment she almost believed him"

- Malicious Intent, Kathryn Fox

yeah, and for a second there,

i believed those words

evidence that we got distracted!

imfallingthistimeimfallingheadoverheels

sólo cuando las cosas se ponen mejor;

voy a abrir

Nerd Love

You're the constant that

Satisfies all my unknowns.

The magical feeling, in Newtons

A force that, in all

That caused the Berlin Wall to fall.

You're nowhere near a flat,

Neither are you a sharp,

It's a lovely melody,

Like a neatly drawn parabolic arc.

You'd stop my Venice from sinking,

The drop that makes my titration complete.

It's a compass that gives me direction

On the geographical map sheet.

Adjectives and verbs fail me,

Sentences aren't supposed to be.

Still, I'll write poem and prose and

Direct plays to prove it’s true,

My DNA will never be complete

Without the presence of U*

U – Uracil in mRNA

found this!

nicely written and a good laugh

(:

condescend |ˌkändəˈsend|

show feelings of superiority; patronize
YEAH, SCREW/FUCK Y'ALLnow screw over and get your face outta mine before it's gone

FUCK!

THIS IS EMO!

I WANNA GET ANOTHER PIERCING!

i'm acting like punching another hole in my ear

will solve my problems

if only the holes i punch turn out to be black holes

then i can chuck all my problems in in

and probably just let it suck me in as well

"The guts to face a dragon,

The soul to do their best

The passion to commit arson,

You’ll be fine with the rest."

- got it from a very cool blog

GAHHHH!!!

this is all so screwed up!

how did i ever muster up the courage to even enter jc

really, where did i find that non-existent belief that i could make it?

this is going to go down like this

1)i will do very very badly for promos

2)i don't even cry because i saw it coming

3)i break my parents' hearts

4)i drop outta school

i used to believe that i could do anything

if i just put my mind to it

yeah right hazel;

all you did was lie to yourself

during the past pe sessions

we've been playing the games that we'll be playing in IHG

so my classmate decided to try his luck

eehong: mr hiap! can i play DOTA?

mr hiap: er, can la. you dress up like cosplay then can SHING CHING SHING [attempt to spell out sword noises failed]

HAHAHA!!! mr hiap is so smart!

~~~

OH AM GEE!!!

you have gotta to love BARBARELLA! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuoO3iH_Ttk&feature=player_embedded#t=21

i really wonder if you really know

cause your actions and words tell me otherwise

stop your sarcasm, STOP

if you want me to  stand by the sidelines,

just say so

you don't need to go through all that trouble

and make me feel the way that i do

you are like a vicious cycle

all i can say is : call me when you get out

One of the reasons why I love you

I just received a text from my baby! SO CUTE I SMILED LIKE OMG. Like a Cheshire they would say :D

“DON’T FORGET!ANTM CYCLE 12 AT TEN! 2-hour special! (:”

You’re so random, and I love it :D SMILE WHEN YOU READ THIS BABY!

(: i love you too! we'll figure something out, i'm sure! (:

i read a post i posted in april

and realised i've lost sight of my goals

i'm really sorry to all of you [yppae family]

i once had so much dreams for it

but now,i don't feel it anymore

but i'll still help

just cause of you all

release

release

sitting under the sycamore tree

basking in the warm golden light

the grass glittery with morning dew

the silent air light and fresh

the sweet air surging through my body

i gaze up to the blue skies

a smile crept by

while i watch the bunch of coloured balloons

rose into the otherwise pale sky

[found it;pretty]

adrenaline

i hear the thumping in my ears

the heavy laboured breathing

my palms are sweaty

my vision a blur

a thousand thoughts are running through my head

someone said something

but i couldn't understand

the light buzzing all around me is driving me insane

then, the loud boisterous blare goes off

and everything is clear

i'm racing for the end

[found it; i think it's nice]

je ne veux étudier plus

yes, i DON'T

just when you think it is going to be different

just when you think it is going to be a happy ending

it turns out otherwise

sometimes in life,

people enter just to leave

the pain never dulls,

never

it is a rough ride

although i'm not ready for this roller coaster ride

i'll have to ride it till the end

although i've fallen through,

i've grabbed onto life and hauled me back

so here comes a loop-de-loop

with many others and the plunge-of-death awaiting

i wished i chose a better seat though

no words seems to help me

no action seems to pull me up

i'm on my own

me and i;against the world

BITE ME;

talked to my brother

it felt good,

to know that there's someone there for me

who shares similar dreams as me

let's work hard towards it 大哥!

though we fight/quarrel alot

[yes i still remember that toe you slammed,

and that punch in the stomach]

but i still love you as much!

THANK YOU!

yesterday we had to go for piano class ourselves

so the bus went by orchard

and at the construction site beside orchard central,

i saw a group of construction workers

clad in LUMINOUS PINK VESTS AND HOT PINK HELMETS!

like,it was a really funny sight!

i tried to snap a picture,

bus the bus was moving too fast!

i nearly cried laughing man!

and yes,i made the dustbin topple

while we were skipping! -.-

not my glam-est moment!

extremely sensitive now;

BETTER WATCH WHAT YOU SAY!

the week has passed by so quickly!

the workload is increasing at a crazily fast rate

them being the last surge towards promos

scary much!

but pe has been a form of stress relief this week

played floorball in tuesday

[gabes is damn good!]

and volleyball on thursday

yes, i went berserk!

and then skipping!

it was fun until i embarrassed myself

HAHA

je vais être quelqu'un de se replier sur

had a study session with a few of the lovelies

was productive and amanda's need to solve

a math question is hilarious

i just needed my chocolates

we had a few laughs,

random video calls with mayvin[although she was just there]&christine&lingrong

and took pictures before we left for dinner

thank you for the help and talk

was really fun! (:

I'M NOT EMO!

just not feeling my happiest

(:

this is why dance makes you happy!

when i saw this;

i laughed really hard!

dilute coffee tastes as bad as bitter coffee

craving candy and ice blended mocha from coffee bean

anyone wanna deliver?

maybe i should come up with such a service!

getting what you want at your convenience

from a convenience store!

make a decision

people make choices everyday

and i admit i've made wrong choices

choices i regret

but as for you,i'm glad i made that choice

because you weren't even true to yourself

what more can you give,to anyone in fact

i've never felt so dumb before

i told myself not to let anyone/anything

make me feel stupid

cause you are in the driver's seat of your emotions

but i was wrong

i couldn't control the feeling of stupidity

FUCK/SCREW math

i'm not even trying

and part of me feels so horrible

i don't know what's gotten into me

but i'm damn sure of what's gonna result from this

utter failure

why do those "typical" guys who are very into music

are depicted as loner/non-popular boys

as like in bandslam and nick&norah's infinite playlist

we need to give these people more credit!

you are just pathetic!

few things to touch on

1)orchard central is very very deserted

and it is cold!

but the coffee bean there is so conducive!

2)saw some girls who were clad in heels

not the most fashionable ones

nor heels that are really high

but with each step,their ankles are rolling

ALL OVER THE PLACE

really!if you can't walk proper in heels,don't wear them!

3)today i am reminded why i ABSOLUTELY HATE

taking the train

the amount of people taking the red line towards jurong

is horrendous!

4)and so i missed the first train

i waited with the other people who missed it too

and we were like a parted-crowd

like we are lining the edges of the doors

leaving a very accessible pathway for commuters to exit from the train

and as the next train arrived

some random lady just zoomed in through the pathway

just as the doors open

like,ARE YOU CIVIL ENOUGH TO WAIT YOUR TURN???

i've had some time to think today

and really, faith is the root to all success

someone once told me,

faith is the largest word around

because it embodies determination,spirit,trust,truth

and so much more

the biggest step i've taken was to have faith & take heart

the world stood still;as the shutter went off

realization;

i can't stand it when it's too quiet

you-can-hear-a-pin-drop-quiet

still silence is unbearable

and i can't stand it when there is no movement

when nothing is moving and it's just still

like they are afraid any movement will send us

all flying and floating around like a suspension

i guess i'll only be able to take all these when death calls me

when i'm too dead to bother

after that episode;

things have changed

no longer am i able to suppress my negative thoughts

all i ever talk about now is war and death

failure and breaking my parents' hearts

all i can think are how i'll never achieve my dreams

and then i'll build big dreams and crush them

like a vicious cycle;

i can never learn to pick myself up

because i never give me a chance to learn to stand up

i'd prefer if no one repeats this

i hope you know who you are

sincerly,thank you

bandslam;good movie if you love music

i love the songs

because the lyrics are really meaningful

kudos to the writers,(i believe the songs are original)

i am no prince            

i am no saint            

i am not anyone's wildest dream            

but i will stand behind            

and be someone to fall back on"          

- someone to fall back on; bandslam

whole new start;

breathe hazel,breathe

i told my mommy about my dream

i wanna leave singapore;

hopefully get a scholarship to an overseas university

but deep down,i know i can't do it

all the crap about working hard,believing,putting in more effort than others

well,in academia,it's usually those who are smart

in addition to hard work do they really go far

people like me,who are just mediocre are well,

stuck in the middle

so where do i go from here?

FUCK THE EDUCATION SYSTEM

SCREW ACADEMIA

exactly how i feel with school

just so "eager" to hit the desk

tired of holding on to this "stardard" and the "norm"

just wanna let go and fall

contemplating if i should go for biology remedial later

argh; help me!

school/studies/exams STINK

i'm just so frustrated with all this academia

on a lighter note; i love her hair

simple

haven't baked in awhile

feel like baking;have some messy fun in the kitchen

fairycakes anyone? (:

cool fridge! i would very much like to redo my entire room

get some new furniture

and give my room a whole new makeover!

~

found a few videos on youtube that are so cute!

*i want a lollipop [mugglesam]

*i don't like you mommy [copgirl406]

*get the camera off me mommy [copgirl406]

*getting low-low-low [copgirl406]

*charlie bit my finger - again! [hdcyt]

i'm thinking of changing my hairstyle

tell me what you think

long bangs so i can do a sidesweep

yesyes;

i overslept today,so i was late for biology tutorial

yesyes;

i rushed home after tutorial

nono;

not to study

yesyes;

i'm a GONER!

how long has it been since i last played a board game?

i just love how pictures say a thousand words

maybe i should take up photography?

i always wanted to put on so cute boots and splash in puddles

i'd love to dance in the rain

and i love a rainy day at the beach

maybe one day, i'll share my love for the beach with my kids

i never understood why flowers are so pretty

and then again,i wish to live elsewhere;

not here

where laughter will be the norm

and my mom is so cute (:

i just felt like doing it (:

they got me through the toughest times!

even though sometimes they don't do anything

their presence;their fun;their care

dissolves all troubles (:

YPPAE peeps are like FAMILY <3

as much as i love heels

[yes! i love heels! the higher the better;

you know, i've always wanted to participate

in that race where women wear high heels (like 3-inch & above)

and dash for like 100m, or shorter]

YUPPS! i LOVE heels like mad

wearing sneakers at my wedding sounds cool!

(:

ain't that bride pretty?

is it really true that a woman's her most beautiful

on her wedding day?

one day, i'll like to explore europe;

on a bike (:

~

this post has lots of pictures

seeking solace in crowded places;

seeking solace in songs;

even the best fall down sometimes

even the stars refuse to shine

out of the back you fall in time

i somehow find you and i collide

so it's officially over

i'm more relieved than anything

i did stumbled a few times,

but i guess i'll pass it

a merit would be such a surprise

today was a rather fun pe session

felt like the true lazy girl i am deep within

and well,we danced

YES! we danced right there at the basketball court

i shot A hoop and played a little tennis

today,i relived dance

and it reminded me why i loved dance so much!

when it was pointe week;

i'll whine because i'll be in pain

i'll love it because there's no adage

when it was soft week;

i'll whine because there's adage

i'll love it because there's big jumps

I LOVE&MISSMISSMISS DANCE

):

lost the PASSION;lost the DRIVE

lost the AMBITION;lost the LOVE

it's washed away with the tears that fell

IT'S TOMORROW!

YUPPS! IT'S IN ANOTHER 12 HOURS!

THE NERVES, THE STIFFNESS, THE TENSION

JUST HOPE&WISH&PRAY THAT I'LL PLAY WELL

blessmepeoples!