biology is a goner

chemistry is so bleak

math is hopeless

way to go hazel

you're a huge idiot/failure

to hell with ya!

judgement day tomorrow

and i'm blogging

way to go hazel!

whatever,i'm printing stuff that is related to midyears

anyway,i was texting liwen today

and this is what she said

"if only we all had expandable memory,

then we can get a memory card for each subject!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

it killed the boredom i was going through then

studying biology has got me all drowsy

anyway,

GOOD LUCK TO ALL TAKING MIDYEARS!

A.S.H., 09S02 & TEAM PJC

all the best! (:

putting training on hold

and only gonna row 7 days later

it marks the arrival of judgement day

hopefully everyone will do well for the midyears

cause we all worked too hard to be suspended from training

i really miss training

and i miss my team mates man

seeing them like every other day during the holidays,

and now not seeing them,

it's so weird

so many lessons learnt during this holidays,

i won't say i've grown

but i've indeed opened up my eyes

but now it's time to show that i can do well in my academia too

judgement day;

here and then soon-to-be-gone

planks are the bomb!

and not in a good way

i'm now damn cui in ballet man

can't do a proper grand jete

and 20 minutes of pointe has left me perspiring like a pig

and my toes died

CRAP!

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HAZEL LONG needs to go shoe shopping!

HAZEL LONG needs to have a massive shopping spree

HAZEL LONG needs to save up first

HAZEL LONG needs to cut the slack and do some work

HAZEL LONG needs to stop spending money on food

HAZEL LONG needs to get some "me time"

i really the the beach alot!

not the sentosa kind

-it's fake and ugly

not the miami beach kind

-it's too crowded and noisy

what i like is a beach

that's windy,quiet and serene

the fine white sand and the crashing waves

picking up sea glass and seashells

LOVES <3

no matter how much i wanna believe you

i can't

you may think i'm a bitch

but well, you did this to yourself

everytime i believed you,

you turned around and lash your ugly colours

well not anymore

you don't have a chance,

cause i DON'T BELIEVE YOU

i realised my blog has been so negative lately

HAZEL! think happy thoughts! (:

fuck you;screw you

don't think you're the one who has the sole rights to be a bitch

i can so be a bigger bitch than you

but i choose not to,

cause you're not worth it

but i'll be honest

i'm sick and tired of you and your stupid acts

i'm sick and tired of being on the losing end

you act all righteous and noble

but fact is,

you're an insecure,two-faced(maybe more) bitch

and you know what

you can rot in hell for all i care

cause i do not,i repeat,i DO NOT cherish our friendship anymore

~~~

you,bloody asshole

i'm really glad i got it all out

cause i'm done with being played like an idiot

in your little games

~~~

sometimes you say things that really hurt

sometimes i don't blame you

sometimes i do

sometimes i stand up for you in front of others

and i never bitch about you

maybe it's cause you think too highly of yourself at times

so you think you can say things about me

but the fact is, you do it too

so i guess this is a little secret i'm gonna keep inside me

cause like a white lie,

it won't hurt anyone

and i know when to listen to you

and when not to

currently listening to:

songs from the LES CHORISTES soundtrack

what i feel now can't be put in words

but i know they know how i feel

i'm sorry

and i miss you two very very much

i've learnt and i've taught

"choices have consequences"

i guess we all have to drill this into our heads

it's all about what choices you make

if you choose to turn a deaf ear on what i say

on my corrections

then it really isn't me who is not doing the job

what happened,

i didn't want to happen,

i didn't want to have to be the one that does it

but you drove me to the wall

and i chose to lash it out

i don't regret because i know i've swallowed my limit

if you choose to blame me

and lash out at me

i don't blame you nor will i care

because it's your choice of feelings

you choice of expression

i just hope you know that i really want to help you

i really didn't want to end up scolding you

and that what happens in training stays in training

"sometimes you cannot believe what you see,

you have to believe what you feel.

and if you are ever going to have other people trust you,

you must feel that you can trust them, 

too - even when you're in the dark.

even when you're falling."

-tuesdays with morrie

pierced my ears out of frustration

had fun at class barbecue!

(: shared loads of stuff

and i learned stuff about my classmates too! (:

all in all;

a terrible yet awesome day

my classmates cheered me up!

(:

ME LOVES 09S02!!!

steamboat was grawesome!

(great+awesome;courtesy of hannah montanah)

had fun! (:

how do you spell awkward?

1) when you are all friendly with ex school mates online

    but when you see each other in flesh you just

    (a) stare and look away

    (b) act dumb and like you never see them

2) when your friends know your ex schoolmate and try to get you two back

     but when they call you all of a sudden,

     the two "friends" have to pretend to make small talk

anyway,training is getting better

cause i'm capping lesser

and i'm improving (senior said so,hopefully i really am)

pushing really hard

but there are just times i wanna give up real bad

HAZEL LONG IS STRONG

GO HAZEL!

today was really the day man

gym,land,water

all in a day

really felt the muscles burning when i was in water

the last two kilometers was just the killer

gave my best, my 100% in the last two laps

going down the lanes,

counting down the buoys

it's crazy,

but a good training

and some guys (shawn,brother oh and tanghao) joined us for dinner

laughed and joked an bonded a little with everyone there

(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

i didn't know when it all started

i didn't realise at all

one moment we are just standing still

no one dared to move

then you took the first step

and walked into my bubble

next you pull me out

and we're outta our shell

but we both need our bubbles for the keep us alive

and since you knew we were dying soon,

you crept back into your shell

leaving me behind

unsure,unprepared

but waiting to die

sometimes;

i envy those with a life

having fun and going out

then;

i remember what i want at the end of this two years

awesome grades

awesome team medal

and;

i fight away those thoughts

i keep myself strong

but still;

I MISS A.S.H.!

I LOVES LOVES LOVES YOU GIRLS!

maybe i got it all wrong

maybe it's me who's confused

maybe i just didn't see the full picture

so many 'maybe's,

but how many can i possibly take before i crumble?

what if it isn't what i expected?

what if there's no such thing?

what if i am just a coward?

so many 'what if's

but how many can i count before it all just kills me?

a busy day;

a taxing week;

a hectic month;

a gone life

~~~

it's you who keeps me going

it's you who cheers me on

it's you that brings me forward

everytime i decide to fall back

(: