some people are just so different

in one place and another

it's like two different persons

and no matter what,

reflect before you speak

i got into loads of trouble in my "past life"

because i didn't think before i speak

it doesn't make a difference if you apologise in the end

cause people will still remember the first impact,

providing a cushion after a fall ain't better

then cushioning the fall

so,please

SHUT YOUR TRAP

think,then act

in times of low and in times of pain

they pull you up and walk with you

~

thanks friends!

i'll be fine,

i'll get over it very very soon

loves you all for the support and concern

no longer awesome,

i feel so small and helpless

disappointment and frustration,

why can't i do better?

i believe i'm doing my best,

i'm giving my all

but it doesn't seem to pay off,

i like it's not good enough

weak and fucked up

i'm so full of shit

a random photo after math lecture

at xin wang honk kong cafe, his face look scrunched!

so after training on friday,

i meet up with my elbro and we went to queensway

he tried to tempt me with mac!

and i subconsciously ate two fries!!!

then we bused to orchard

but there were no movies to catch,

so we went to xin wang hong kong cafe at plaza singapura

cause it was already 10plus

and i haven't eaten

in the end,he paid for dinner (:

thank you long yishu! (:

today was the worst training ever for me!

it started out well with land training

but water training was horrendous

i was paired with husna in a K2

to cut the long story short,we capsized a total of two times

out in the water

feeling so helpless and frustrated at myself,

i lost all control and screamed at husna

and well,cried

in the end,my teammates saw me crying

and my seniors too

"you're so strong yet so weak"

is what they say,

i gotta be stronger

i guess capsizing is my biggest fear

i gotta overcome it

courage is the mastery of fear,not the absence of fear

sorry husna!

thank you seniors!

you're so full of shit

you're so good?

prove it

so today was a normal day

went for morning training

started out at the regular (girl's bar)

but then james asked me to do pull ups at the guy's bar

the one where you had to step up on a metal placement to even reach the bar

and it was HELL!

got blisters on my palms now

OUCH!

then the day passed by really really slowly

and well,

first time i wasn't so psyched about pe

but at pe,

joseph wished me happy birthday

and it turns out that the seniors could hear the team singing birthday songs for me on tuesday!

and they knew!

gosh!this is so embarrassing q:

oh wells!

anyway,thank you AMANDA for helping me in math! (:

OH MY GOODNESS!!!

i so love ASH and PJC CANOEING TEAM!!!

today started out normal,

with morning training

when we were walking back to the tables,

i saw this huge NEWSPAPER SWEET resting on my bag

walking closer,

i saw the notes,FROM ASH!

they were sneaking up to my bag while i was running

the MEGA sweet

then i went to the cafe to thank them!

really really touched!

i opened the gift when i got home at 8.45pm

there was like THICK layers of newspaper

FIVE layers!

lovely notes!

CUTEST BEAR&FLOWER (:

back to the day's events

had our first unofficial training

it turned out that rachel,ezzati&atiqah were late

cause they went to buy a BIRTHDAY CAKE!

i was so touched!!!

atiqah,christopher,ernest,eugene,ezzati,

geraldine,husna,jingchow,johan,lydia.t,

nic wong,norman,p.jiahao,o.jiahao,rachel,

shawn,sihui,tanghao sang another round of birthday songs

english-chinese-malay!

the cake was cute and chocolatey

had fun taking photos

then training,cutting cake,then training,then eating

i look truly SPASTIC

chokeslaming jingchow

group photo

yes yes,macho and the pretties!

newest facial in the market

i'm really selling it huh?

norman&me

THANK YOU CANOEING MATES!

i honestly am touched!

they truly love to make me tear up!

hakimah&haziqah sang me a birthday over the phone!

thank you twin darlings! (:

but i so LOVE this year's birthday! (:

yppae,ash,canoe mates,09S02,friends,

YOU ALL ARE LOVED! (:

i had an AWESOME birthday!

it started with the many text messages at midnight

the song session from 09S02 at PE (with gabriel)

the multiple (and a little random) birthday wishes at breaks

the impromptu birthday song from lydia.t&friends

the multiple (and a little random) birthday wishes after school

the LOUD song session from my canoeing teammates

in english then chinese then malay!

i still remember rachel asking,"huh?it's really your birthday ar?"

and "really your birthday anot?"

the gifts

-MACBOOK from my parents

-soft toy & cookies

-cake

-handshakes&text messages

then the cutting of the oreo cake from drama seniors!

it was good!!!

so nice and rich with awesome chocolatey taste!

ohkay,it looks chui, but it's good!

another nicer shot

my slice,or i should say,chunk of OREO CAKE!

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO MADE MY BIRTHDAY SO AWESOME!

yingxi,jinxuan,xiaojun,weineng,zach,

yida,liying,qianhui,peifen,zihan,tingjun,

zhibin,xueyu,lishi,liqi,shien,yiling,yunzhen FROM YPPAE

afiqa,suhailah,esther,lifang,arjun,jeremy,

cindy,rachelle,bindu,jagan FROM BVSS

09S02

lydia.t,ezzati,bainy,atiqah,rachel,lydia.c,

peijun,persis,liwen,husna,geraldine,norman,

jingchow,eugene,ernest,shawn,larry,

iskandar,jiahao,tanghao,jiahao,johan,nic wong,

christopher,glen FROM PJC CANOE TEAM

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN!

everything you guys did were awesome and it touched my heart!

and i'm sorry if i missed out anyone!

ps, a possible combination of

FLOUR,WHIPPED CREAM,WATER,MILO POWDER

will get me after training tomorrow...

goodness

i went the yppae on sunday for the "dialogue session"

it went alright

and they surprised me with a cake!

oreo cake from the seniors!

thanks! oh and i found out that i can eat chocolate!

IT'S NOT BANNED!

(: will cutting the cake tomorrow with my family! (:

then i went to din tai fung at jurong point for dinner with my family

we were all so famished that i took no photos

the only one i got was the mango pudding dessert

the moving hand there is my elbro

the half-eaten dessert

today,was not started well

i missed the bus and the next bus was EXTREMELY late

so i missed morning training

but then at the end of school,

ash,esther and lifang celebrated my birthday with a cute cake!

chocolate again,with cookie monster on this chewy edible paper thingy

yes school rules when you have awesome friends!

me and my cake, not my glamourous day

candid shot-we started laughing when the timer went off

su,esther,afiqa

nearly perfect...

think how weird the three below looked when they were smiling for i-don't-know-what (:

kae,i look constipated

i shook cause afiqa was laughing

angles DO matter

ah!finally!

thank you people! (:

shared the laughter

shared the tears

we both know

we'll go on from here

-westlife, unbreakable

it's coming

and truth to speak,

i'm not the least exciting about it

cause maybe i'm too busy?

or because i don't know what is happening?

or just maybe because i'm just to tired?

it's coming,it's coming,it's coming

it's tiring to keep spending time with a bunch of people who aren't genuine about themselves

why must you all act happy when you aren't?

it's tiring to spend time with a group of people who are on different wavelengths as you

why,i feel like the weird one when it's really all of you that are immature and weird

it's oppressive to be around a bunch of people when they are so fake

you feel like you have to be conformed into someone like them

i'm sick and tired of such rubbish

take me away

when you're bored to shits

and you just wanna have something to do,

i go to gettyimages and find some photos.

enjoy,

so i went to the adidas sale with jun today

was a little disappointing for me

it was only the first day of the sale

and it was only two hours late from the starting time

and many things were already taken

what's more,

the main items in the sale were shoes

and i wasn't interested in shoes

but of course i wasn't gonna leave empty-handed

i bought a cool top under the respect M.E. series

(:

yida's BBQ was a blast!

everyone was just getting high

thank you yida for the awesome time!

(:

cam-whoring with jun's new emporio armani phone!so

cam-whoring with jun using yida's new nokia phone!

[clockwise from bottom left:jun,xi,me,zhen]

reflection in the toilet

xueyu's so cute! (:

i'm finally

done with the reflection for the camp

now i'm left with 

CHEMISTRY worksheet

BIOLOGY tutorial&article review

MATH holiday assignment

GENERAL PAPER activity

GOSH!what a pile!

i think i'm afraid of bread

especially bonjour flavoured bread and fairprice white bread

because we've been eating it for three days

for breakfast,after water training

and whenever

on the last day,

we were made to finish the whole bunch

played games and used it as forfeit

and the seniors even "packaged" it with our phones and wallets

when they returned the latter to us

how nice?

gosh!

i have like a smashed loaf of pandan bread

pandan anyone? (:

went out with some 4E5 peeps today

went to vivo city

but since the group was so BIG

it was inevitable to break into cliques

and since they were gonna watch coming soon,

and i'm afraid of horror movie,

i watch slumdog millionaire with afiqa

then shopped around

I SO LOVE PULL&BEAR!!!

bought a cute robot top

and i'm saving up for a dress

i'm saving my cash for the adidas sale tomorrow! (:

ain't we one cute "couple"?

we're missing suhailah! [2/3 ash]

walk.stop.snapshot!

yet another walk.stop.snapshot!

pull&bear dress

i really like it! (:

MY BOY SIDE

[X] you love hoodies

[X] you love jeans

[X] dogs are better than cats

[  ] its hilarious when people get hurt

[X] you've played with boys on a team

[  ] shopping is torture

[ ] sad movies suck

[  ] you own a XBOX

[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid

[X] at some point in your life you wanted to be a firefighter

[  ] you own a DS PS2 or SEGA

[X] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers

[X] watch sports on TV

[  ] gory movies are cool

[X] sometimes you go to your dad for advice

[  ] you own like a trillion baseball hats

[  ] you used to/do collect pokemon

[X] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear

[  ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people

[X] green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favourite colours.

[X] sports are fun

[X] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth

[  ] sleep with your socks on

[  ] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 13

MY GIRL SIDE

[X] you like to shop

[  ] you wear eyeliner

[X] you wear the color pink

[X] sometimes you go to your mum for advice

[X] you consider cheerleading a sport

[ ] you hate wearing all black

[  ] you like going to the mall 

[  ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures

[X] you like wearing jewellery

[  ] you cried watching The Notebook

[  ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe

[  ] shopping is one of your favourite hobbies

[  ] you've seen Star Wars and don't like it some of it

[  ] you do/did gymnastics

[X] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed

[X] you smile a lot more than you should

[  ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes

[X] you care about what you look like majority of the time

[  ]you like wearing dresses whenever you can

[X] you like dancing/do dancing

[X] you like high heel shoes

[X] you used to play with dolls as a kid

[  ] you like putting makeup on others

[  ]you like being the star of almost everything

[  ] pink is one of your favourite colours

TOTAL= 10

Now multiply by 4 to get your percentage.

Boy: 52%

Girl: 40%

HAHAHAHA, i'm more boy than girl!

who would've guessed it?[almost everyone?]

HAHAHAHA

quiz i took from tingjun's blog,

cause i was bored,doing canoeing camp reflection q:

i'm,

back from canoeing camp

a TRAINING camp,not a leisure camp

let's retrace my steps...

day1

woke up late so i cabbed down to school

was the female ic for the day and worked with shawn

went out for the first water training

was assigned to the K1 boat

hard to balance and i got really upset that i couldn't row out

then we ran the male's route at macritchie

then we headed back just in time as it soon started to rain

then we had a study session while the seniors did gym

then we headed out again,

girls did land first

we did 60 pull-ups and 100 male push-ups

continued with the K1 boat and made some progress

then we headed back

the seniors were disappointed with our attitudes and un-seriousness

so we were scolded and did 200 push-ups

after dinner,we washed up

we moved the mats into the rooms and cleaned it

captain nicholas was happy cause we made it in good time

day2

lydia tang and glen were ic

headed out and did T2 with bainy

rowed out and kept veering off because direction was hard to control

it then started to pour and all boats were called back

as we were at the 1000m mark,we tried to row back as fast as we could

but the choppy waters and the bad direction control didn't help

seniors junyang and joseph were screaming at us to hurry as it was extremely dangerous

they also gave us pointers to get bak to shore quick

after docking the boats,we ran to the tunnel for shelter

after which,we did circuit training with the super seniors[alumni]

the second water training started out fine

i was praised for handling the boat well when we were unpacking

we started with dry strokes which i'm happy about

then we did K boat

i did baby K and was able to row out

but when many others start giving me so much instructions,

i got nervous and capped

mr ang was not happy at all

then i did T1

capped in the middle of the reservoir and had to get help

lydia t and norman saved me

i was rather unstable because i was so nervous and direction was being a bitch

then when i was heading back,i capped again

norman,eugene and johan had to save me

that ended the second water training

we were not punished and were even given time to rest

i went to the canteen straight as i didn't want to go back to the room

one senior,yu ping and the other junior boys saw me

and thought i was being "emo" and anti-social

after dinner and our study break,

we watched videos of ourselves,our seniors,national rowers and international competitors

learnt quite a lot

day3

woke up at 4 and gathered at 4.45

ran about 10km [as said by the seniors]

and then had breakfast

the seniors got us to play the number game to clear the leftover bread

then we played games

like chain tag,dog&bone and captain's ball

then we soon packed up

we were given time to write appreciation notes,

but not enough to write for all

notes were given

and then BREAK CAMP

i'm so tired!toodles

CANOEING CAMP IS IN A FEW MORE HOURS!

and i'm so psyched!

cause it means so much water time,

and time to push myself past my limits

and of course,

know my teammates better! (:

i'll be gone till wednesday! (:

for CARR,

hey darling!

I MISS YOU TOO!

NEED TO MEET UP!

WHAT ABOUT DURING THE MARCH BREAK?

I THINK I CAN MAKE IT ON SATURDAY EVENING?

TELL ME KAE? (:

TRUCKLOADS OF LOVE! (:

there's a reason why i said

that we could be so much stronger

i believed we could pull through any kinda weather

there's a reason why i said

that we could be so much better

i had faith in the two of us

but you had to prove me wrong

[rubbish i came up with]

ohkay,"girly talk"

it's fun when you're crushing on someone

like you get all excited when you see that person,

or just have something to look forward to

but then there's the wondering whether it's just you

who's thinking he's looking your way and stuff

and what he means when he said this or that

argh, this is so not the strong hazel long i know

but sadly,the strong awesome one is on holiday

and the weak-kneed, soft-willed one is left

sigh,get a life and hit the highroad sista!