hey guys!it's been eons since i last posted!!!school is awesome but a little hectic!i know i know,i said i'll be posting mabout views and all that...but i don't have the time,YET!so,i'll be posting about them after the performance.so,stay tuned guys!i promise i WILL post soon! (:

five words: hectic schedule,hectic school life.and well,school hasn't even officially started with the curriculum.what with the nearing date of the performance,the pace and speed of production is pushing past hectic.now,thought i hate to admit,we are WAY BEHIND schedule.

short posts for now.but i have topics that i wanna talk about.i wanna use my blog to discuss my point of view.so STAY TUNED!

peace (:

i got shortlisted for modern dance,but i felt no big whoop inside me.and well,ballet is starting to feel like a chore?i don't know.cause all the time i've been rushing down and just doing classes and well,not getting anywhere.but i can't blame anyone but myself,cause i have SO many commitments and also i ain't good enough.but will i just turn out to be like rachel lau,my senior.after so many years,she still hasn't done grade six.she's really good,but my teacher just overlooked her i guess,since there were so many excellent dancers to choose from.and then one day,rachel just upped and went.sigh,this is so not what i want.

sorry guys!i'll reply your tags soon! (:

so,i guess despite all the suggestions from all of you,i've decided to join canoeing.i guess i'm more interested in sports then the arts.i can't see myself doing dance day-in-day-out for two years.i guess my passion for dance burns on "recreation&fun" fuel instead of "future career" fuel.

just to let you guys know (:

i attended the tryouts anyway.

for canoeing,all the girls need to do is run 2.4km.i started off too fast[considering the fact that i haven't trained in like,hmmm,SEVEN months],i was in my "with-sufficient-training" speed,bouncing and striding like there was no tomorrow.i was at the end of the fourth lap,when i started to feel my chest ache,so,at the last bend,i turned around and cheered on some of the other girls,in hopes of covering my slowing down.then the second girl caught up and ran with me.so yeah,cheering each other on.last lap,a lap of humiliation.at the first bend,my legs felt like they were made of lead,my lungs couldn't fill in enough air,and my ENTIRE slab of abdomenal[spelling?]exploded into this excruciatingly painful cramp.i had no choice but to fall back.i started to slow down to a jog and then i started to brisk walk.my companion,hannah,wanted to stay with me,but i asked her to move on anyway.at the last 100m,i grabbed my stomach and dashed down.but still,i sucked by 3.42minutes.what a let-down.oh well.

for dance,we were sent in in groups of twelve,since the dance room was kinda small.then they taught us a simple choreography[3 eighths]and we were to perform one by one to the "panel of judges" while the others faced the wall.this was done to eliminate unnecessary pressure.the president was really shabby with the steps,like not knowing where to finish and such.[not trying to be really cocky or whatever]the auditions went well but what baffled me was the fact that some actually forgotten the steps. q:

i didn't attended ODAC tryouts cause i felt it was a waste of time.tryouts were from 4.30pm to 7.30pm where they'll be playing games[???]so i went home.

tomorrow,there'll be water training at macritchie reservior.and well,during the "dry" tryouts,mr ang,the teacher-in-charge dispelled many rumours.so the team doesn't so pull-ups and run every morning and we girls won't become manly.and well,most of the girls are still small,slim and well,feminine.

so,dance will call if i'm shortlisted.but,i think i'll be taking canoeing.i'm not sure yet,STILL THINKING! (:

it seems it really is my fault.moving fast and stuff.i'd like to give my side of the arguement,but what i say won't help cause the damage is already done.sigh.hate this in between shit.hate it hate it hate it.

it's my fault,it's all me

dilemma!

should i join the DANCE club or CANOEING team?

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dance

pros:they do lyrical,contemporary,modern,hip hop [styles i'll like to learn]

they are pretty good and they get to choreograph their own thing

cons:i look weird doing other dance

there's horrendous politics

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canoeing

pros:it's a merit sport [sporty,so me]

i get to be fit

cons:tough like shit training [like run before assembly]

possibilty of becoming a totally man

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HELP!

well,the first day of school was well,DRY!erm,got a few interesting and colourful characters,but the rest were feeling exactly the same thing,awkward,out of place and well,unfamiliar to the place.we started with sitting in the hard parque flooring of the hall for approximately,three hours.with the brief [and i mean really really BRIEF] introdution to the subjects offered by the HODs.

then there was a college tour,some OG time.which was rather boring to tell the truth.my group has people who are willing to give things a try,while majority are not.some are definitely pressured into not being enthusiastic by well,the people who are truly not interested.how sad is that?

then the end was even more dry and tiring because we were all stuffed into the stuffy hall,and it was really hot out and well,we just had our lunch.this equates to sleepy time right?and they chose to advertise the student council.after like seven years of being in a leadership role,i guess i wanna take a break and stop standing up and just step back and observe.i guess,being a teamplayer is also a way to learn how to be a better leader.

after the boring session of talk and no play,the song&cheer session was horrendous.they attempted to teach us the school song by getting a councillor who sings off-tune.and it left me thinking which tune is right.and they expect us to sing it like we've been learning it for years?the cheer session was a half failure with some who are willing to try and well,those who don't even wanna move.and the latter still complains it's boring.why don't they see the many oppurtunities that are RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM that might be at least a fraction of fun?

tuesday through to the next tuesday will be dry days where we just sit and listen to people talk and attend lectures and start attending lessons that might well not be our eventual subjects.then wednesday will be orientation day,the fun day.i hope they're right!

peace

p.s. xiaojun,a little difficult to change now that i'm used to typing in paragraphs.so,GET USED TO IT (: and thanks to those who left messages. (:

i'm starting school tomorrow and i am so dreading it!it is probably because of the fact that i'll be entering a new environment,and well,i don't know what to expect.i do have some ideas,all of which are negative.what contributed to those ideas are probably just my stereotypical thinking.good gosh hazel,stop thinking the worst!

damn!it always happens,no matter what.i admit i and a totally prefectionist and one who is firm and harsh when it comes to getting things done.i am not a softie that will be nice till the extend that people will crawl all over me.although i do not just jump right in and scream and shout.i pace myself,but do not believe in spoon-feeding nonstop.

so it seems,this doesn't really make others a fan of mine when working together.or maybe it's just the fact that they just don't understand where i'm coming from.what must i do?

fuck fuck fuck

hate school,hate it hate it hate it!

chingay was awesome!although the audience were a little cold,the experience was still spectacular.dance,and samba-ing down from cityhall to suntec was really interesting.sometimes we're just dancing around in our own world.it was exvident that we all enjoyed this celebration.now that it's over,i won't be seeing the girls anytime soon. ):

after the performance,my daddy picked me up and i complained that i was hungry[AGAIN!]so he brought me to supper at toa payoh.we went there because i was supposed to go to my cousin's place to do some family project [sound major huh?] but it turned out that my cousin and my aunt are JUST leaving my grandpa's place.so i had time to eat.soon after,they met us at the hawker centre and we left for their house.

due to the SUPER good quality of the makeup [namely the eyeliner and glitter] it took my cousin loads of makeup removal and much of my rubbing to get rid of the breakout-causing makeup.PHEW!

so we have been up doing the project till thirty minutes ago when we breaked and she went to sleep.now i'm on my own.SAVE ME!

having rehersals tomorrow,i don't know how i'll keep my eyes open.but i will manage since i've done this before (:

peace