I'M GOOD WITH HAMMERS

AND SCREWDRIVERS

AND THE SORTS!

why am i always the bad guy?

life isn't fair

i know that,

but sometimes,

other's misery is also another's misery

screw it bigtime

i'm gonna lay low from them for awhile

and stay closer to people i know better

peace

the movie penelope is such a meaningful story

"it's not the power of the curse,it's the power you give the curse"

the meaning behind the show is truely on a higher level

like the purpose of the show,

to be accepted by "one of my own kind"

meaning to first be accepted by yourself

will you be able to comtrol the power you give to others to demean you

really,everyone should watch penelope

so yeah,

my phone is screwed!!!

so i'm using my mom's phone

while i wait to see if the cost of repairing my phone is expensive

if so,i'll have to pay for a new phone

[majorly saddened by the fact]

anyway,

i'm still contactable (:

this is just a heads-up to all

peace

(:

hey ho people!

apparently i'm a rude,immature,pathetic and what's that,desperate person

well,cool revelation!

has it occur to you how you will judge people,even though you don't know the person?

like everyone says,first impressions

so yeah,

for those who say,i don't judge people

"blah blah blah..."

you're one big fat liar

everyone judges,

but not all verbalises it

so yeah

but who cares what you think

i couldn't care less that i'm any of the above

i've long since let both of you go

so yeah,take a hike lady!

yes,this post is for you

see how nice i am?

or,are you gonna use this post and say that i can't let you two go?

aww,i'm so scared that you will

but i believe you won't use such irrelevant things to take to the arguement

btu actually you do

but like i said,

you can say whatever you want

and congrats on finding my url

remember,i don't change my url because i'm scared of you

it's because...

I WANT TO!

tata and peace

why don't you sit down here,

right next to me

close your eyes

and lend me your ears

mt tears flow down

while i share my tale

and you shall place your hand around me

and tell me that all's gonna be fine

i'll rock back anf forth

i'll shake and sob

and you'll assure me that it's all gonna past

~~~

but wait,

where are you?

who are you?

i'm without a "you"

so who's to comfort me?

who's to assure me?

who's to lead me down this scary road

and make sure i'm ohkay?

what is there that i have to say?

i can't accept his feelings,

i can't say how much i'm pissed at her,

i can't understand why she is speaking to me,

i can't stand how i feel so voided

i'm lost and i'm so upset

kill me!

peace

today started out shakey
cause of the camp and the short hours of sleep
i was really shug by the time night came
and i overslept till eleven fifty five
when i'm meeting the guys at twelve
went out with ash and ashraf
watched wild child
A GREAT MOVIE
positively a good chick flick!
so yeah,bought a new balck leather belt
and then went home
then it turned bad
su's mom is pissed with me
and i got scolded
and then i have no more little brother
i swear,his no longer my brother
i'm tired,pissed,upset and really blamed
and though i really feel like bitching about it
it won't be right and it won't be fun
and i really want to be a better person
so breathe in,breathe out!
go HAZEL go!
peace
(:

alright,so i'm officially back from the adam khoo camp!

let's run down the list of events

sunday:

i finished my packing

and left to meet suresh at cck mrt station

met up with him and cabbed to the campsite

the campsite is at singapore vision farm near hometeam academy

so i met the coaches for this camp

there's tasha,harpreet,sabri,mahes,chinboon

and there's jasper,razeef,dennis who are also here for training like me

we'll be like understudys to the coaches and be assistant coaches

i was initially paired with mahes

over the rest of then day,

we went through the basic rules and some stuff we could share with the kids

the camp was the ulw [unleash the leader within] camp with the medieval theme

gopal the pd was KING GOPAL

jeff the apd was DUKE JEFF

the coaches are GENERALS

the students are SQUIRES

so we tried some of the stations for the next day

then we ended the day at about eight

we then left the campsite to go to farmart,

some place that is quite crowded despite it's ulu-ness

we ate some supper then went back

found out about the narnia toilet

then i was told that i'd be taking on a group

cause one of the coaches couldn't make it and they couldn't find a replacement

so yeah,i took a group with another co-coach who's also new to outdoor camps

she's an indoor camp coach,kimberlyn

monday:woke up really early to go to the school

and then met my group

went back to the campsite and had many activities

through monday to wednesday,

we conducted many activities and made a mark in the kids

at the end of the camp,many cried

and many were really empowered from this camp

chuyao,a really cute guy from my group actually cried!

i miss my kids and i'm really proud to have made a mark in their lives

to me,it was an experience that i could never get enough

the teachers were REALLY REALLY happy with the coaches and the outcome of the camp

so yeah!

and i got to know that both jeff and gopal were confident and knew that i could do it

and that's why i was chosen to take a group to replace the missing coach

i'm so proud of the positivity and enthusiasm that i emitted upon my arrival

and that was what brought the confidence in gopal and jeff

and the fact that i made an impact with so many people,i feel so touched!

hopefully,there's gonna be more camps!!!

yay-ness!

peace

(:

my wisdom tooth is KILLING me!

and i can't do anything about it till next week

cause i'm so packed this week

and if you don't already know what a wisdom tooth is

it's a tooth that kills you by pain!

go search it up!

so,the update of my life

monday:

went to the singapore zoo with my yppae peeps

there was jinyong,yida,weineng,qianhui,yunqi,xueyu,peifen

i'm telling you,

the singapore zoo is daylight robbery

entrance fee is a freaking EIGHTEEN BUCKS!!!

yup,it's super expensive

but it was great spending time with them

but i still miss the the other seniors from yppae

and we're trying to go on excursions weekly!

tuesday:

had a treat from aslam at mad jack

the food was ohkay

but THANK YOU ASLAM!

and we went to dempsey road for a job hunt

and well,the ben&jerry's was cool,

but really troublesome,

so we ain't going

then i met jie for a manicure

she treated dinner at ding tai fung

scrumptious! (:

and well,i got really frustrated cause many jobs are only open for a minimum age of eighteen

that is totally unfair

wednesday:

brought daren long shopping

then headed to susu's aunt's place to prep for prom

we all three were freaking late

so we ended the prep really late too

the taxi uncle was so nice to pick us up

and he drove rather speedily too

the night was great

took loads of photos

and in most,i looked weird

laughs

this coming sunday,i'm gonna start my assessment camp with adam khoo

it's like this camp where i'm not paid but assessed to see if i'm good enough a camp instructor

so yeah

but the thing is

all the others are like poly students

and i'm afraid i'd screw up

fuck seh!

well,wish me luck!

(:

i went to haji lane today!!!

bought this cool top!

and also,

shopping for clothes at flash 'n' splash is so difficult

everything is out,

so have it or not

so i have to give up the skirts and bottoms from there

i'll settle with fox

cause they ROCK!

(:

peace

i'm freaking out cause i can't find what i want!

my favourite fox mini has it's button fallen off!

and it requires special machinery to "punch" the button into place

this so sucks

cause i haven't worn the mini is so long

i'm friggin' flippin'!

I NEED TO FIND THAT SHOP!!!

i saw it on the television before quite some time ago

it like totally just specialises in denim

it does all sorts of magic on your pair of denim-whatever

so i really hope it can perform a miracle on mine

otherwise,

i'll have to settle for a really ugly metal button

that will totally cram my style and the mini's as well!!!

so,

if any of you have any leads to this mysterious,

miracle shop,

tag me!!!

thanks all!

(:

peace

today:

went out with A.S.H.,ashraf,lifang,esther

loaned my carabenas to lifang

and my black nike pouch to ashraf

walked around orchard

was really shug due to the horrible chlaet the day before

bought a dress and a "wallet"

i'm using the "wallet" as my "clutch" for prom

i'm tired

so shall update more detailed next time

(:

peace out

why does life have to be so topsy-turvy,

"up-and-down"-y?

~~~

i think my pms is acting up again

~~~

over this period of time,

i've learnt so much more about myself

it was like a journey to self-learning?

what i've learnt:

i have a SHORT attention span

i get irritated easily

and i am obvious about it

i love vintage

eccentric

and boyish stuff

i wanna be a skater-chick

and i love dunks!

loads more

stay tuned to find out!

(:

peace out

shit me

i feel many things in me

and i wanna let it all out

i'm dying to cry,

i'm dying to fume,

i'm dying to clam up,

but i can't

i don't know if it's myself

protecting myself

or just for the vanity

it's hurting me

haven't been blogging for awhile

let's see what i've got planned...

this monday,was the social studies paper

it was ohkay

nothing much

tuesday,i slacked around

and lifang came my place to borrow my cardi

and i helped her alter her dress at the last mintue

wednesday,i had mother tongue paper.was kinda easy

went out with lifang

met up with xiaojun to vintage-fy my prom dress

in the end,we didn't do shit

meeting on friday again

aslam came too

wanted him to use his ngee ann card for discount on havainas

but lifang couldn't find her desired design

i left asap cause i felt like the biggest third wheel there was

thursday,lifang came over do design her canvas shoe

susu came too

i ws feeling really shug

and had this throbbing headache

so i rested while they crapped

then went to my grandpa's place

cause he ain't feeling too good

friday,am meeting xiaojun at serangoon

to go to chinatown and do my belt

searching for bus routes home

cause i don't like trains at night

coming saturday,going out with my mom

sunday,meeting the gang to study(maybe)

next monday,having my physics paper1

and also chemistry paper1 marathon

tuesday,nothing YET

wednesday,am having chemistry paper1

then a bbq at zikang's place

thursday,biology paper1

last paper!!!

and then the 4e5 chalet

ain't gonna stay over

friday,SHOPPING!!!

(:

peace out