humanity is leading with a score of i don't know what.

it seems

environmentalists' efforst are working

the level of awareness of recycling and saving the earth is really increasing

that's really the crux of the issue

without awareness

no amount of effort or funds with held the issue

kudos to those who made the effort

now its step two

actually getting people to do what we preach

let's pray people (:

long yishu sucks

yes,my elbro sucks

he likes to bully me

sometimes he's nice

sometimes he's not

he like to kick me

i am not your punching bag

i hate my life

my emotions are hanging my a thin thread

i'm snapping

i'm breaking

i hate this weakness

i'm doing well

and all you know is to look at the emptiness of my glass

it's half full already

you only know how to put me down

you're an asshole alright

my grades are pulled up by so much,

well at least for me

and now you gotta put me down

what about my math?

it's not good enough to pass?

fine,i'll fail.

"shut up before i hate you"

nothing inspiration to blog..

shall rest.

when the sky turns a dark shade of grey

you know the cluods are about to burst

you know the rain would be about to fall

you know the wind is blowing hard

but when someone's heart breaks

would you see te signs

would you see the tears streaming down

would you seethe hurt inside

cause when you lose someone you love so dear

cry a river and build a bridge

then wear on your shoes and get over it

~~~

loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you,

but trusting that they won't

when you blow the whistle

and bring down an entire corporation

because they will eventually cause a crisis

are you a hero who saved thousands

or a mere betrayer who caused hundreds their jobs?

it seems,for some people

their lives are more important than others

and they focus on their own because the calamity has not happened

and they have not experience the massive guilt that will befall them

tsktsktsk,they need to change their mindsets

our moral compasses can only point us in the correct direction

but not make us head in the correct direction.

now that our teens are living in a society which tells them to follow in what the believe in and not to be afraid of what they believe.

it hence led a handful teens to live frivolously and dangerously

with no care for the world

they live with no guilt and remorse

it can lead up to even more extreme cases

for example,the "harry potter"actor who was stabbed to death

teens taking things too lightly and not thinking of the consequences

for example,the group of girls who beat up another just to video it and post it online

the world is facing a major crisis that can't be reversed

so it's now the race of failed humanity and environmental crisis

which will bring the end to mankind?

oh my gosh!

i think i'm addicted to blogging.

haha.

shall blog later on...

i'm out of inspiration...

haha.

it's been spilling out over the few days.

haha.

何时感到寂寞

何时感到悲伤

何时感到快乐

何时感到兴奋

何时想哭，想笑，想跑

我不知道。

我的感触多得让我不知所措

我的感情混淆，令我看不清，感受不到

我的感官一时之间，出卖了我

不知，你能告诉我

我是什么感觉...

~~~

when i'm feeling lonely

when i'm feeling sad

when i'm feeling euphoric

when i'm feeling estatic

when i wanna cry,laugh,run

i don't know.

my feeling leave me confused

my mixed up feelings,leave me baffled,leave me unfeeling

my feelings betrayed me

i don't know,can you tell me

what i'm feeling now?

~~~

translation is like shit. (:

updated wants list:

(like who will care right?)

jelly flats

billabong bag

animal shopping trip

everlast sneaker-pumps

new ankle socks of assorted colours

new ipod nano gen3

lappie

new tops from fox/topshop/dorothy perkins/espirit

shopping trip at haji lane+black market

new denim bottoms from fox

sports duffel/handbag

search for orange old series adidas watch

the others have slipped my mind. (:

focus on what you have,

not on what you don't posses

optimistis people only see success before them,

pessimistic people only see failure before them.

it's all about the choices in life people,

choices.

和其他人比，我的生活显得比较简单。

他们的相比之下，显得非常奢侈，繁华。

what are you waiting for?

what are you doing here?

to snap me into two,

to break me into to millions?

you never fail to amaze me

cause whenever i take my eyes off you,

a second or a minute long,

you change and differ

by multiple layers,

after awhile

i lose track of you

and then i stop to think,

which is the real you.

~~~

green of spring

yellow of summer

red,orange,gold of lovely autumn

white of winter.

the colours so clear,

so beautiful.

there's time for all to show,

there's time for their solos

now the painter got mixed up.

he fumbled and fell,

the palate is ruined.

now the colours mixed.

they are horrendous.

the grey of cyclones

the deep blue of floods

the ash-red of fires.

the brown of landslides

the black of earthquakes

the red of blood

what's gonna happen next

i don't wanna paint

i'm on a poetic spree!

so just call me poet! (:

do you know the main reason of a

humongous belt buckle?

the main point behind it is not the beautiful design,

or the style

the real point behind it:

to draw attention to the groin area,

to arouse the sensual thinking of the opposite gender.

so think again,

humongous belt buckle wearers. (:

anyway,today was the mother tongue o loevels

the paper is easier than expected

but i'm just worried if i can score.

anyway,stayed around school and slack till two..

then went for physics briefing

ms cheong provided many obvious clues. (:

then class training is CANCELLED!

haha.

then rushed to yppae to help out.

i mopped the floors till it's darn clean. (:

but my back is breaking.

i feel so old!!! argh.

then we went to kfc to makan.

haha...

then i'm home.

haha

BORING POST OF MY BORING LIFE (:

turn my back to you,

i ain't gonna care,

cause i'm gonna go

the way i want

to my life,my path

you can't stop me

lies lies lies

you're a pack of lies

the acid is burning up my life

you really don't see me anymore

i'm as invisible as the air is to you

cause all you have eyes on

is your lovely lass

well,

i ain't gonna take you away

but just for the record

i'm disappointed

after so long,

you still ain't get the message

you hurt me once more

so don't blame me for raking up

the past and the present

don't diss me again

cause you haven't got a chance

i won't let you hurt me again

cause you ain't worth a bit of my emotion

cause you ain't worth my time

but still i have to give it to you

kudos to the care you once had

before it was sucked up by her

i'm not planning to take it back

cause it wasn't mine to start with

best ain't association for either of us

cause i know purely

how much it will not happen

i no longer crave for your attention and care

cause the disappointment has taken over

the resentment has taken over

it's just too much

to accept you back

why you ask

cause you deserted me

cause you left me

cause you dropped me like a bomb

onto the shards shrewn ground

waiting for me to self-destruct

so i did

what will you do about it

she came to me

you came to me

nothing's gonna go back to the norm

cause you both know why

take your luggage

and just move away

take her away

and leave me standing

here

strong

alone

here it is...

"drumroll please!"

i'm on a poetic spree!
so just call me poet!
and anyway,
i'm designing my own "logo" sorta thing,
inspire me people! (:

tell me,

what did you really mean?

why are you doing this to me?

is it joy for you?

answer me.

all this fun and games,

i don't wanna play,

so just,

take me away.

how could you leave me,

alone at the park,

enclosing me,

the darkness is vast.

how could you leave me,

hanging in the air,

eating at me,

my insecurities,

are coming back.

reaching out,

you aren't in reach,

you're backing up,against eternity.

i'm up a wall,

painted to a spot,

why did this happen?

why did this happen?

to me.

so just take me away,

away from all this insanity,

away from this awful place,

away from this place,

that's killing me.

today was fun...

i printed out the piano scores for:

hurt - christina arguilera and apologize - one republic ft. timberland

also,i had to rush down to plaza to get tickets for made of honour.

and we're luckily to get tickets.

mad of honour is great and funny.

definitely a must watch romantic comedy (:

and had a nice conversation with weineng,

i'm sorry about the situation,

but at least you ain't so down about it. (:

and well,that's about it.

i realise singapore cut alot of pieces off the show,

the search for the next pussycat doll.

i personally love the piece,pon de replay by

anastacia,sisely,melissa r

also i like a dance by some american sorta dance group.

they danced to the song buttons by pcd.

they did a really hiphop rendition.

it was amazing.

notice the guy in black and the girl in white (who joined a lil late)

they are really great.

pon de replay: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BP184eUIa7A&feature=related

button dance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FYckpLDJTk&feature=related

http://youtube.com/watch?v=42E2fAWM6rA

amazing video.

must watch. (:

mother tongue is super fun today..

we had loads of laughs.

i really improve my chinese la,

and mdm gao put in loads of effort.

kudos to her

i'm sorry i was so hard on you,

i just don't like chinese that much.

but i won't let you down,gao lao shi,

i'm aiming for an a2! (:

wow!i'm so happy for me!

my grades improve like hell!

not trying to show-off or what...

just wanting to share the joy,

last year,class position was 26/42

this year,class position is 12/41!!!

how cool!

haha.

kudos to all the effort i put in!haha.

as london from the suite life of zack and cody would say,

YAY ME!

haha...it was fun talking to nic wong.he's funny.haha.

today was crappy...

mother tongue was hell long.

we were practically dead..haha

today was fine on a whole,

just a little tired.haha...

i'm on a mental shopping spree!!!

need to get jelly flats!

need to go check animals out!

falling in love with swatch:fun swirl!

haha...more to come!!!

from a short story i read;

a clay pot maker made a bundle of pots and set out to sell in the village.

on his way to the village,a few pots slipped and fell onto the hard ground.

the pots were smashed into many pieces.

however,the pot maker did not flustered or stop to look at his pots,

he merely walked on.

a passer-by then called out,"aren't you going to take a look at your broken pots?"

the pot maker replied,"why should i?they're already broken.what help will a look do for my broken pots?"

you see,many people will fluster and turn back to their setbacks.however,these actions are a mere waste of time and attention.

a meaningful lesson that allowed me to really stop and think how much time i've actually wasted.

as i say,been there,done that,move on. (:

now that it's out in the open,does it mean i can be sad in the open?

i have always made it a point to keep my emotions to myself,

or at least,i don't express it in the public eye.

all i show the world is how pissed/frustrated/shitty i feel.

just never the weaker part of me.

cause i hate the feeling of weakness,

the digusting chrome-metallic taste that never seem to disappear.

it's a feeling that leaves me feeling lousy and useless.

i never want to feel like this again.

but life has it's ups and downs,

so it's bound to come back,

but with each down,i'll rise up higher.

i'll swear to that. (:

if i hadn't stepped into this huge mess

then all this shit won't be happening will it?

if it wasn't so complicated,

it won't be like that.

fuck,i'm screwed.

twists and turns...

that what my world looks like.

the world is screwed,

it's basically a domino effect,

it's as screwed as my life.

I HATE YOU!

don't promise me no more

cause i can't trust you

you broke your promise once

and it's scarred me for life

so just shut it!

you know so,

you know it too well,

but you opened your mouth and promised.

we all know,we all knew

it's so obvious,

we're drifting away.

and you know very well why.

it could be the result of many shitloads of crap being thrown at me,

it could be the result of the lessons learnt,

but i found myself to heal real fast or just not allowing things or certain events get to me.

i mean,been there,done that,get over it right?

but well,it seems like it works for really very little people.

and i've learnt not to hope for too much?

i used to say i won't hope for anything..but that's tough.

i allow myself some limit,and well,it works better than restraining myself.

well,i'm beginning to really feel in control of my life again.but in a better way.

i hope this feeling is the result of me maturing.

i hope i have matured out of the old me and to a better me.

cause there are times when i irk myself out.

so kudos to my willingness to improve!

ganbatte hazel!

Hazel, your best quality shines through in how Determined you are
The fact that you're a person with a strong will who is typically determined to follow through on difficult demands and meet important goals really draws people to you! But that's not the only thing. Your answers on the test indicate you're a calm, relaxed person who tends to take life in stride. You are a funny person who is likely known for your great sense of humor, too.

www.web.tickle.com : What's Your Best Quality

haha,we'll see if it's really true.haha.wel,i'm stuck on hyperframe.i'm left with ten more levels.but now my brain ain't working to help me get past the levels.haha.

you know,sometimes it takes certain hurtful experiences or events to actually bring out the true colours of some people.i mean,are those the layers they wanna conceal and hide because they don't like it or are those the layers that that hide till it's time to unleash?some layers are a fresh change or a new layer,showing that the person has grown.while most layers are just really ugly colours sloshed together.personally,i am disgusted by two particular ones.but life's like that. (:

oh yeah,this june holiday is ROCKING!

let's see why...

next week is intensive mother tongue.

everyday we do one paper2 and tueday and thursday we do a paper1.

for tuesday,thursday and friday,we have EIGHT hours of pure torture.

wednesday we have SEVEN hours of pure torture!

then the week after we have structured programme which is just a programme where we are dragged to school for MORE lessons!

then i'll be helping out with the magical holiday camp and sembawang camp by yppae!

and i'll be saving my money,meaning staving.

we'll be celebrating afiqa's birthday

and i'll be MUGGING!!!

haha.how rocking cool is this june holidays gonna be?

we'll all see! (:

i'm currently stuck at level 28 of hyperframe.it's a puzzle game that's totally intriguing!i'm doing the mind version cause the speed version is just pure speed no brains needed.talk about stimulating your brain.well,if you are into this sorta thing,you can find the game at www.shockwave.com and search for hyperframe.

i'm smiling like a nut-so.you'll know soon. (:

it's driving me insane.

i can't take it anymore.

this is not how things are supposed to happen,

not like this,not like this.

it's sunconscious

and when i catch myself,

it hurts.

i can't stop even if i wanted to.

i just can't.

take me away...

1. story behind your primary picture?
a confident girl.she's lost though.
2. what is a question that people always ask you?
what are you doing.
3. what is your relation with the last person you give comment?
my lovely friend <3
4. would you share a drink with a stranger?
hmmm.it'll depend.
5. do you love chocolates?
totally!dark is much loved!
6. type of music you adore the most?
no particular genre.just nice tune and lyrics.
7. what is wrong with you right now?
i feel weakness surging through my body.
8. name something you have to do tomorrow?
wake up.
9. your current mood in one word?
crap
10. in love with whom?
a guy i barely know. (IT'S WRONG!I KNOW!)
11. when did you last cry?
just last night.or i should say,today morning.
12. why?
the story was touching. (:
13. story behind your background music?
strength
14. what is the text in your inbox?
for me to sleep early?
15. have you ever ride a police car?
yup!during primary3.i sat at the front.
16. what are you listening to right now?
the news and my mommy's words.
17. do your close friends have children?
erm,nope.we're still damn young.
18. has anyone told you a secret this week?
erm,i think.i don't really remember.
19. are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
no and no.but in the future,maybe a tattoo.
20. what big concerts are you looking forward to?
i'm not big on concerts.
21. next vacation you're going on?
vacation?i haven't had vacation in years.
22. last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
erm,i can't remember.
23. what did you dream last night?
to tired to dream.
24. does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
nope.but it does vibrate once in awhile.
25. who was the last person make you cry?
yasser.for being really sweet. (: he's a great bud.
26. what are you looking forward to?
to end school and continue with my life.
27. do you have a best friend?
what's with ranking people who make you happy?
i have lovely friends,no one is comparable to the other. (:
28. favorite radio station?
perfect ten,9.87
29. first band/group you liked?
erm,i think it was westlife
30. first music video you enjoyed?
avril lavigne - when you're gone
31. what's your lunch for today?
rice,fish,veg?
32. last movie that you have seen?
untraceable
33. what time did you wake up?
10.25
34. what is the last email you received?
from friendster.about yingjie sending me a comment on one of the pictures.
35. do you miss someone?
yup.and the wrong guy.
36. last time you got tipsy/drunk?
i DO NOT consume alcohol
37. last person whom you danced with?
myself
38. what was the last text you received about?
from justin mommy,to sleep early like him.
39. favorite tv series?
for now,it's csi. (:

IT RAINED FOR AGES LAST NIGHT.there was thunder and lightning and heavy pellets of rain.and as i had hoped,the weather is glorious!haha.great weather.haha.

i hate the feeling of weakness,the feeling of want.it sucks because i'm playing out of your hand.and only you can control my emotions.it will never be the same though.nothing can change that fact. ):

IT'S A LIE!the rain did nothing to neutralise the swelteringly hot weather!went out with my mommy today.was kinda fun but super bloody hot la.in the midst of completing yasser's pressie.haha.it was so easy.haha.

why is it that you are making me walk in a maze.first this and now that.it kinda makes me feel if all this is a scheme.

what am i hoping for?

what am i waiting for?

what am i longing for?

impossibility that is.

i keep telling myself not to want,

but i can never achieve it.

it's difficult to be in this situation

where you just want to hate yourself.

but love is of the essence

to learn to live is to learn to love.

but it's that very thing that hurts me more.

IT'S FINALLY RAINING!!!hallelujah!i could sing praises all night!let's just hope this is a sign then the weather is going to get more favourable!haha.it's heavy rain and thunder!ooh~,i'm never so happy to hear thunder!!! (:

today is the LAST day of midterms!haha.went to jurong point after chemistry remedial.haha.sus treated us to mini tubs of ben&jerrys!haha.nice nice.me and susu had cookie dough while afiqa took double chocolate fudge! (: yumyumyum!after which we were crazy.haha.took pictures till we were damn high.

i don't mean to feel distrust...but it seems you're avoiding me...hope not ):

I AM SUPER DUPER BORED!!!considering that it's a sunday,and also a day before my papers,i shouldn't be feeling too bored.and well,i'm just super demoralized.what's more,under the immense pressure and ever-killing weather,it ain't helping.it's like a sweltering pothole here in singapore.tsktsktsk.

has it ever occured to you how life has been playing a fool out of us?all this while,our paths awalking.just move on...

now,it's kinda boring.with nothing much to do,it kinda leaves me with nothing to.there has got to be time off studying yeah?that's the way to keep myself sane.and i don't have a book with me since i have been reading profusely over two days and finishing.haha.i haven't got around to borrow another book from the library.haha.my hours are now spent around studying and stoning.haha.it's really boring...and i've got not much people to talk to...so life is really dry and shit.haha.