ohkay,so after sooo long,i'm here to do my updates!haha.there's like so much i wanna say,but oh wells,i'll filter some of the crap out.haha.

when life gives you lemons,make lemon juice.some people get strawberries and they get to make strawberry smoothies.some people get lemons and they make lemon juice.but some people get nothing,and they dun get to make anything at all.haha.how pathetic is that?it seems like i belong in the last category huh?man,life sucks.haha.

now my life is just full of stuff.mondays with tuition,tuesdays with class,wednesdays&thursdays with rehearsals,saturdays with piano,sundays with rehearsals.haha.fridays' the only day i'm free apart from school.and walking home today see,ed really weird cause i haven't done it in like so long.it was great to walk home and read my book.haha.

sometimes i question my very presence on this earth and apparently,i can't find my meaning of life.i've yet to find what i long to find.and i always seem to not be good enough.i can do things well.but i'm neither bad nor excelling in it.and this really makes it hard for me to find passion in anything i do.i've long forsaken my athletical goal.but i'm still not doing well for ballet.i still feel insecure and unable to live up to my teacher's expectations.i feel i'm not as good as the others and i feel plain awkward.

damn,life sucks.for now,i hope. (:

you are nothing but scum.

plaguing my entire body.

leave me alone,i owe you nothing.

you hit me with your ice-cold hand,

the ring of the crack of whip rings hard in my ears.

i hate you so much,

you're a pest in my life.

i'll pay you back your measely money

so leave me alone you fucking bastard.

i rather not knowing you,

i don't crave for you like them

you're not related to me

you suck you low-life

my head is throbbing

it's enclosing me alive

the mark with scar me life long

so don't think i'll forget.

haha.today went out to meet friend but he was late and it was raining.haha...then went over to meet the others.but they were even later.haha...made us both wait like crazy..haha.but they paid for the tix.so it wasn't so bad.anyway i cope alot of susus's sweets so it's even.haha.had fun at the museum.but one of the sections had this god thingy.that lights up at time intervals and has this eerie gong sound.haha.freaked me out.but susu and brenda and mel gutsy enough to even sit in that room.haha..after that,we went to long johns while the other rich kids went to cafe cartel and waste food.haha.then they went home and we went for the movie.

HAIRSPRAY is freaking nice.a MUST-WATCH!!!haha.

nights..