haiz.today's vesak day and also the day my uncle's tablet is arriving at his home.so now all the poeple are gathered here to do the ceremony and stuff.well anyway,let me update you on the huachong SLC that has taken place on tuesday,wednesday and two more days to come,friday and saturday.

tuesday,which is the first day was sort of the orientation.we went to orchard and had the orchard orientation.it was fun and i was namely the walking street directory.haha.i was good.[grins]then we went back for mass games,throwing water bombs at people.haha.it was great.we were physically tired out.

wednesday,the second day was a more formal day.we had to write out an action paper on two major problems.we spent 5hours plus thinking and writing,then we had a formal consortium meeting.it was my first time in a real fromal consortium meeting.and it was really fun in a way.we were all mentally worn out.haha.only two more days and SLC will be over,time really flies.haha.

well,seeya!haha (= takkaire.

haiz.it just totally sucks,being in the council.he's not stable enough and doesn't carry authority.tsktsk.i worry for our 21st council.i know i should be giving my greatest support.but sometimes,i feel that he dosen't deserve to be the head casue he can't step up to the challenge.and sometimes,things aren't always what they seem.and i've learnt to not trust people.cause looks can be deceiving.and it takes alot to know what dirty secrets lie ahead.

i'm beat on friday.having to worry and get effing pissed with a number of people,i really didn't know what to do.and i was really touched when my friends just got me to sit and stone there while they left me to myself.really,it helped me.when things started having it momentum,i got the hang of things too.and the meet was more or less alright?

i believe i can do better and i want to do better.i want to prove to them that i really dun need them and that i can jolly well survive on my own.and by right,i'm not a lone stranger,people dun like them as well.and thats becasue of what they did and not what i said to them,(i'm not that influencial and they can disbelieve me).

this two weeks have been really really hectic.whats with the investiture coming up(its over)and the preparations for the inverstiture and meet.darn the school for giving so much time(not).steeping up to the mike,i didn't know i had a habit of softening my voice.and with the eyes on me,i read monotone-ly.but i will work harder.i want(hope)to be an exco teachers will remember.

and now i feel kinda bad when i "take over" the president.cause is the president and i will feel bad.but now,i will do my best,even if it means that i'll "overtake".cause the kids need order and firmness.and if he can't take charge and give that,i have to take over.otherwise,our council will collapse like what the student body and councillors think.they foresee us fail.but i will do my best anf give my all to ensure that it doesn't fail.and it will have to start from me.i have to do best of what i know.

ok.so i haven't been doing regular posts this past week or so?well that's cause i've recently received my post as vice president for the 21st student council.darn the post man,because of the investiture and other stuffs,i've missed FIVE ballet lessons.WHAT THE FUCK!damn the school.it just sucks.i hope i haven't demoted myself into my teacher's black book.

haiz.

ok.so today went for yppae.then instead of the magical holiday camp meeting,was the friendship camp.then i became the vice-chairman.haha.stressed sia.haha.today finally sent out the consent forms.hope the response will be good.only left 4sundays to the camp and time is really running short.haha.oh and for the choir,i'm in soprano.haha.so happy.cause its the melody.easiest to sing.hehe..drama for today wasn't quite fun but hope it will get better.haha.as for the poem recitation,i'm the group leader.and the poem for my group is about FRUITS.so...interesting.haha.dunno what to expect.and we're supposed to sing it?dunno how to do so.haha.

well takkaire. (:

after i retired to my room to cry in peace,tears didn't flow out.nothing came out.i just felt really really tired.as if,i could fall asleep even while standing.

i'm just really tired of this kinda rubbish you people throw at me.you'd think i'll kill to have fakers and actors in my life.and then treat them like what you call friends?save it.i'm not interested.

but now that i'm awake and reading my stuff again,i feel nothing.i'm just numbed towards this kinda crap.save your act in front of other people.you are the ones "pretending" your ass off.

like my url tells you,my life ain't your life.
you say i have no rights so talk about such stuff?well,you're in no position to reprimand me about it anyway.and anyway,you are no better yourself.well well well,i can probably guess who the fuck you are.but you ain't gonna be here to access my blog anyway.but since you're such a superbeing where you can actually assess my situation and conclude that i'm a bitch.well,i can also conclude that you're no better.and i dun look in the mirror.my bad.i just use my time to make sure people like you have a time of their lives and have the material to look at.consider the deed done.

you people have no rights to step into my life and say anything.cause first of all,you all are in no position to talk.secondly,i'm not hypocritical like you both are.thirdly,i have real friends.not like you guys who have FAKE friends.and thankfully,you showed me your true colours.then i no longer ahve to waste my precious time on you guys.and really,i rather i be a loner in school then mix around with you guys.haha.

i can believe that my temper is really better then you guys.and really,your temper is much worse then mine.at least i know my real friends can understand me.not like you guys,little bit also can't take it.haha.take a hike. (:

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

who do you think you are?why do i always have to "pretend" around you?somehow,you always demand us to please you and shun and step aside when you come by?you think you're so effing big and stuff?well no you aren't.why can you feel the way you feel and say the things you want and others can't?you have no rights to do so and behave like that?you're like a bitch.you're just a toy that people pick up and play with.then discard you when they had enough fun.that's how miserable you are.

and "yes,i am pissed.and i have the right to be.although i had a part to play but you were the trigger.and because of you,i end up crying every night.you caused me to have endless screaming catastrophes with my parents.and you're getting pissed cause i'm blaming you?reflect your fucking fake life girl.just blame myself for seeing the wrong people.and that i'm too rash when making decisions..

everytime. ):

STOP FINDING MY BLOG!

why must you all keep finding my blog?darn it.and,"yes i WAS pissed with you.but who wasn't?but now,all's done cannot be undone.so get over it.i'm no longer pissed.so stop dwelling over the fucking dumb issue.

whats wrong with me?i'm crazy enough to forfeit my results with dumb ideas.that's how dumb i am.haiz.

i wanna lead a whole new life.one where i'm a successful person and i know whats right and whats wrong.i want to lead a life where i dun have to beg to get what i want.i like the fact that there are peopl on the earth who can spend how they like.andits really cool to lead a life like that.just one week i all i ask for.and then i get to keep whatever riches from that week.i just wanna be rich and powerful!haha.i'm like crazy and insane but who doesn't wanna be rich.

they say money can't buy you happiness.its not entirely true.everything now talks money.you get a husband,you need money.set up a family,you need money.no money,you can't live.so everything's about money.

i have big ideas but they need money.how heartwarming?

this life just darn sucks. (:

FUCKFUCKFUCK

i can't believe that my life can be so fucking screwed.

today,my phone and 5 others were confiscated by the dms cause during our bio paper,SOMEONE'S phone needed to ring.the teacher(being a dm herself,)conducted a bag check.and got confiscated.by right it should be held for 10weeks for students and 20 weeks for councillors.but ms chua gave us 5weeks.but i'm still fucking pissed.the culprit wasn't caught with a handphone.and SHE should have admitted.cause it's HER fault,not ours.fuck la.she put in a netting compartment behind her pad.then the male teacher did do much to it.what the fuck.can you believe it?i'm like what fucking crappy world is this la.how can like that de?wah lao.i'm like so freaking pissed la.what the fucking.and she got pissed when one classmate got pissed with her.what right has she got to be pissed?she got us all in trouble when she didn't even get caught la.

WHAT THE FUCK!