haha.today walked home,ok,briskwalked home.bathe and prepared and went out le..then,went to far east to see the shoe.there's a shop at far east level3.it sells white canvas shoes with really unique designs.but i went to see,but can't find something i like.so decided to make myself.and for my mum.it so simple and i have the design in my head le.haha.then go meet yingxi jie to cut hair.cut le.it so short,can't tie.but i like!haha.then go makan,walkwalk and came home.haha.and the *ahem* thing i settled.haha.so happy,and burdenless. (:

haiz.today is the first day of the myes and people still come late.tsktsktsk.dun they view myes as important as their sleep?there was a total of 13 latecomers.haiz.anyway,we have english paper1 first.it was ok cause i didn't have much to write.and had a few minutes left till the bell rang.after which,went to study area to cram in my ss.haha.then went back to class.haha.then something good happened before the ss paper(later then tell).for the ss paper,didn't have enough time to finish.so my essay and source base last question just vaguely finish.mygosh!gonna fail!haha.so after the paper.had a fifteen minute chem class.mdm lock went through the remaining stuff and we went off.

went all the way to lavender cause need to do ic.then i had to retake the electronic scanning of my thumbprint dunno how many times cause my thumd was wet.but after that,i walk to bugis and walk from nearly one hour for jun to come.then had lunch at mac and then went walk walk...

ok.and now the GOOD news!!!(i'm so excited!)i'm going for OBS!!!haha.i was like hopping mad la.haha. (= (smiles from ear to ear.)

today is the big day!haha.the clearing of my table.haha.it was like reall high and i measured two times of beng loon's stretched hand(from thumb to pinkie).imagine the load!haha.met up with yas and walked.but i couldn't take it and passed him some books.still no help.so we decided to take cab.flagged but occupied.empty but blind drivers.empty and it drove off.drivers who chose to change shifts.thanks.especially all the comfort taxis.darn it.but luckily we got a taxi before i officially go completely nuts,a nice aunty driver dropped her passenger at our point and took us in her taxi.woohoo!god bless her man!haha.

haiz.just went to check my results for the nationals.darn,it sucked bigtime.haha.expected but didn't think it can be this bad...haiz. ):

heya,its been awhile.and finally,my school's speech day is over.no more pissed off afternoons getting wasted.but now,i have to go make my ic(its been dragged on for too long!)and prepare for exams.haha.its crazy how i have lost totally interest in studying and fighting for the best.haiz.ever since sec three,i've been slacking and slowing down.i think i'm mad!haha.and i've got to buck up or else i'll never forgive myself.hehe.

the 20th student council is stepping down and nomination forms are handed out to not only the sec3 but also some sec2.haha.and i'm one of it.all of them say that i'll be the next president.but i dun wanna.its stressful enough to be in this school.and i'm not ready to perform supernatural powers.i'm still a human being.and i dun need to be scolded for the tiniest detail or whatever you wanna vent on.so i've yet to get anyone to write in my form.i need dunno how many different comments for the discipline dept to write and i need to hand it in on friday.firstly,i'm lazy to do so and secondly to burn my chances of being chosen.i rather save my time for studying then burning my time doing things that are for this crummy school.haha.

whatever,exams are coming.so good luck to everyone!haha! (: takkaire

i always live by this,"if you're gonna do it,go up to the best."but apparently my school working towards this.haiz.its so stupid and crazy.i will feel ashamed to be known as the organiser if i ever present such a stupid sucky speech and prize giving ceremony.it lame.

i'm tired and will post till here.will post again later. (:

takkaire.

ok.so friday,straight after school,i took my mother tongue oral.wah,was like so nervous.but i think it was ok la.then went for camp.leadership camp.really enjoyed myself.and i think i like someone there leh.i dunno.maybe i hallucinating.haha.i'm crazy la hor.really liked the games there but maybe was too short for any serious work la.but learned looads of skills and stuff.but all in all,was just pure fun!

but after the the breaking of camp,i waited for my dad to come pick me and i waited for 40+minutes.then went went into the car,my dad said,"you know,gu zhang passed away already."(he said in chinese and he used the words "zhou le".so i was like,"huh?what you mean?"then he tell me gu zhang passed away.i was shocked la.but we all saw it coming.actually only kinda of la.cause last week,my sis told me that the doc said can remove the tubing cause he can breathe on his own.so i thought it was a good thing.then my mum also told me that he's out of icu.in normal ward,even better.but then,it ended likle this.but it's also a relief as its been hard for my sis and aunt these weeks.

now at my sis's house.resting before rejoining the people at the wake.so i shall update till here.

takkaire.

watched freedom writers on sunday.a really really good movie.i'd give it 4.5stars out of 5.

i really salute Erin Gruwell for her passion for teaching.her perseverence and strive to make a difference,to help her students and to bond them all.she went all out to ensure that they get to have facilities experience of real war and even the introduced them to The Holocaust Project.

also,i salute Miep Gies.she is the war heroine.without her,there wouldn't be any The Diary Of Anne Frank.she was the peoson who hid the Frank family from the Nazis and was held at gunpoint when the germans took Anne away.she could have been killed or sent to camp.thank god she survived to tell the tale to the world.

i feel that everyone should be exposed to this movie.it shows us how colour and nationality is such a big issue and it comes under the word racism.it is an uber sensitive word.but somehow,there are a few suckers who find it funny to crack racist jokes and give comments.a funny no-offence joke is ok.but no one asked for you to start discriminating people by their skin colour.also,the movie touched on a touchy issue,gangs and gang fights,racial or group clicks.this can be seen in every society,evn singapore.however,kids her dun fear everyday,whether they can live up to be 18.but it could happen one day.therefore,this movie should be seen by everyone possible.to see what the real world is like.and what could be when the singaporean society mutates.

also,sunday,we had a meeting about what plans yppae had and the june friendship camp!yay.this time i'm the medic(yet again)and the ic for games com.!haha.so excited but so worried at the same time.counting down,we only have 9 more sundays to the camp.short time!

anyway,i will strive to make the games fun and easy. (:

after the meeting,we had the final closure for wizard of oz production.had fun voiced out thoughts and then had the potluck.nice yummy time. (:

the hippy peeps didn't come.but it ok.we'll be seeing them at their performance. (:

takkaire. (:

haiz..after a night's sleep,i feel much better.but still nothing has changed.but after waking up and looking at my phone-9.25,i tried to go back to sleep then i suddenly sprangup and guess what?i said in my mind,"shit,i'm late for rehearsals"darn.and then i realised that i wasn't late for anything.and that the performance had long ended.haha.

anyway,takkaire. (:

finally,its over.no more sad cheerless days for me and the others who actually put in effort.i dun understand why so many things have to happen over these short period of time.everything's just going the wrong way.things shouldn't happen like that.things shouldn't be like this.but apparently He's playing with me.why,why does things need to come to such a state?and i still try to look on the bright side.there is no bright side.no more,no longer,never will.

what is your problem?i never ever helped you to ask for your trust and whatever for the future.you,you looked for me in the first place.i tried to help you but you just wasted my time.you wasted my time asking stupid things and coming to a conclusion way before.you wasted my time worrying for you.you wasted my time trying to console you when i need some comforting as well.and now,you turn your back against me.as if nothing had ever happened before.as if,i've been that evil and enemy-ish to you since the day we were born.well,i no longer have anything to say.i have nothing to reminisce about at all.你根本就是翻脸不认人,是我的好弟弟.

"we're losing him.we're going to lose our guzhang"-the exact words of my mum.i don't care how things are now.bad till no return,i'll continue to pray and hope you'll wake up.and that you'll get better soon.

everyone has to go through this,its part and parcel of life.but its so sudden.he always appear to be strong and will never fall.but,things has to turn out like this.jiejie is the one that really can't take it.its the hardest on her.but i don't know how to help her.

i've always thought that i'm a strong girl.and that i can smile through the strongest wind,brave the overturning waves and stand strong no matter what comes.but i realise that i always break down over the smallest thing.and that i have no courage at all.i just can't stand up to the fact that my life is off the track.i cry because i get pushed to the front.i cry bacause i'm hurt.how could i?i'm supposed to be strongest among all the others.i'm supposed to be their pillar no matter what happened,no matter how the think of me.but when the moment is just right round the corner,i cower and breaks down.really,whats wrong with me?i've lost sight of my spirit,my path.but when will i find it?will it ever be back?

all thats happening,i'm glad that i still have yppae.it allows me to temporarily forget all my tears and smile.thanks guys! (:

politics,-"it's a bad word.you know,the word politics is a really bad word?"-quoted from someone.

my gosh!i got pulled in to some really bad class politics and apparently,i'm the victim.what the hell.and all the assumptions you made,all the things you said.how fun it is to slap you face till my hands hurt?i'll really like to try.but i'll give one more chance.but its not going to stop me from hating you.hehe.you know,all these politics really brought out the colours in you.how dull!all the grey and especially black.how beautiful.you really paint a colourful picture.

why do you start sms-ing me again?first you break my heart and then you ask me to forget you.its right.and thenyou sms me.you're supposed to avoid me!my gosh.its not your fault but i'm here reprimanding you.i'm insane,i'm nuts!

i wanna go back to a time when nothing went wrong.when my life hasn't gone off the track.then maybe i can change the course of life.its shattered and its bleak.when will life change for the better?i need to know now.cause i'm on the verge of breaking down.really.

oh my gosh.8 months have just zoomed by and the wizard of oz production has finally come to an end.i hate the word end!!!8 months just fly by and everything's over.i can still remember the very first rehearsal...everyone stuck in M23 and then doing the warm up,everyone squashed together.ah~the good times.even the feeling of nervousness,i miss.i dunno,just feel darn empty.like a huge part of me is gone.i want to go back to 8months ago.just relive the whole experience again?but then again,too much of a good thing is bad.now,its the looking forward to the june camp and also the meeting on sun... (:

haha.after so long,i've finally found time to blog.been really hectic over the days and could really use so break-time.haha.anyway,yesterday was the first day of performance.kinda got screwed but we still have a last show today.everyone's gonna give it our all to redeem ourselves and shall do our best.but whatever it is,we'll just give it our all. (:

takkaire.peace out.