haiz..

haiz.. i still like him.. seriously like him.. i can't forget him.. how? haiz.. i'll never be with him ever again lor.. i know its impossible.. but i know its not wrong to dream.. if we ever get back, i hope we'll never ever break.. if we never get back, then i wish to back track to the past and never stead with him at all.. haiz.. so sad.. haiz.. if i find a genie bottle, i'll rub it and wait for the genie to come out.. then i'll wish for us to stead forever.. then i'll wish that i'm seriously filthy rich.. and lastly, i'll wish for more wishes.. hahaz.. i very clever hor.. hahaz.. i know i know.. hahaz.. so shameless.. hahaz.. sometimes i totally hate myself.. why must i stay at that square? can't i just move on.. i always tell people that.. but i can't apply that to myself.. haiz.. so ironic.. now i totally understand how people feel when their friends ask them to move on but they just can't.. haiz.. my prince charming is my god bro.. but he not like last time liao.. now we both very awkward.. but i always try to break the ice..last time when i started liking him he was my new god bro.. he always talk to me.. he will always sms me first.. he how busy also talk to me.. he really can't talk will tell me.. wanna sleep will also sms me.. tell me good nite and sweet dreams.. haiz.. now have to sms him first then he will talk to me.. but not everytime.. he sometimes also never reply.. last time when we talk he will always keep the ball rolling but now.. haiz.. finish the subject, then he will just stop.. sometimes talk halfway, i will lost him.. haiz. i very sad leh.. my other god bro say that this is puppy love.. i half agree, half dun agree.. haiz.. this prince charming i very very extremely serious about.. last time is real but not as serious as this.. i very sad.. sometimes say must forget him but dun work.. i can't think of days without him.. i nothing better to do will write his name on paper.. then keep writing and writing, deco and deco.. also will look at the neoprint we took with my great friends at yppae and one with my good sis.. haiz.. always thinking of him.. haiz.. sometimes when he console me, my heart will melt.. haiz.. he very cute looking and handsome.. very strong built too.. got broad shoulders.. hahaz.. but i like him not because looks but because of his inner beauty.. haiz.. i did a little personality test.. and i'm those kind of people who will easily fall for people who i work with.. and i started falling for him during our crosstalk practises and during the camp.. haiz.. i miss his smiles.. i miss him.. very very much..